October 23rd

Due to the urge from President Nelson to read the Book of Mormon for the women by the end of the year, I have made my small goal of just completing it from where I am by December. And I just wanna talk about something.
I was just reading along in 3 Nephi when suddenly the realization of this mortal reality struck me. It happens sometimes, but this time was strong. I was staring out the window as I realized what heaven would be like how different it would be and what I imagine we'll do there. I came to two realizations

One - it's terrifying. It's TERRIFYING to think that we are just small individuals with a huge vast purpose behind us that we can neither remember or either comprehend. We are just expected to do our best on this earth life right now which will determine our fate in the eternities and life to come. The REALNESS of that hit me. It made my head spin and it TERRIFIED me. Eternity is FOREVER. There is no end. What if I want an end? What if I don't like what we do up in heaven? It made me panic. The comforting thought of death, of a sure end was something I clung to, but to think I would enter a world where I would not only not be familiar but would also have huge responsibilities and powers and an ETERNITY to live was scary and alien and I was minorly petrified.

Two - Life can be boring, and this is something I've come to thrash and fight against. But I've been reading books about other people's lives and how they were hopeless, boring and monotonous. I have it so good and I still claim "boredom." It kind of hit me that's not what life is really supposed to be about. Whether our lives are full of experiences or full of the mundane, life is a test. Maybe that's part of it, but no matter what happens here, it's our choices on how to react to it that matter and we will ALL find joy in the eternities to come in the work there is to do and things there are to create.

I sure hope it all comes together. It's simultaneously scary and amazing.

~Nymph

P.S. Atlantean just called. He let me know that he didn't want all the "I miss you"'s and "I love you"'s to be lip service and he feels  he is drawing himself away from me due to his video game. He feels like it's the onsets of addiction which can be slow, so he is making a goal tonight to spend it with me and not with the video game because he doesn't want anything to be more important than me.
I mean, ladies, HOW. HOW did I get THE BEST one? How????

Also I applied for a couple jobs. We're also talking to a gentleman in our old ward about what it takes to buy a house. We bought a mouth moving bull head for Atlantean's costume and got a good price on a tent and two sleeping bags. More updates on all later. :)