May 28th

I feel like I have a lot to catch up on, but no idea if anything is worth mentioning, ya know? Let's start with the biggest thing out of the way first. Mermaid is going into the MTC tomorrow! My family is literally going to swing by, pick me up from my morning shift which I switched for at work, and we'll all drive down to Provo to drop her off! I hope it's a good experience. I hope it all doesn't come crashing down at once.

Logan is starting to feel more real. Today, our new apartment called us to confirm when we wantd to move in and it was like, "Whoa." I'm excited but nervous and I guess that's just the way it's gonna be. It's weird, but I'm mostly excited about fickle things, like swimming pools at our apartment or being able to walk through my favorite cemetery, being far from family and making our own way. Is that wrong? Should I be more excited about school? I'm just getting excited about the little things, and namely having Atlantean and I being up there making our own way. Somedays I think I have too big of dreams, like We're gonna get fit! We're gonna make dinners every night! We're gonna go hiking and camping! Life is gonna be good! and maybe it's just a positive way of looking at it all. Heaven knows if I looked at it anymore pessimistically, things could be trouble lol. I want to be excited! But I also don't want to be unprepared or unrealistic. I think that's a relatable emotion.

I've been struggling lately with finding things to do after work. Atlantean and I had a week we called our "Shut-In Week" where we tried not to go out to just spend money as we often did recreationally. It was a lot of fun and helped us realize that its important to learn how to entertain yourself. I think we are extending it into the rest of our lives lol, because shopping for money-spending sake is a habit we should kill now.

I've also been trying to find purpose in musical writing again. I wrote Sedna - The Goddess of the Sea, and I'm still working on writing, compiling and begging certain (SPRIGGAN) musicians to work on my music. Turns out Spriggan just sent his girlfriend on a mission and now will be working a lot, but he has a year here, so I better catch him before I go so he'll work on my music. I feel like I have to write Matrimony to a Phony, but it will be a stretch, because I've never started with nothing. Faster came so much... well... faster and more natural to me. I like writing musicals, but something holds me back, like if I start writing The Seven Wild Geese now, I suddenly won't have any musicals to work on. I'm debating between saving the good stuff I know I want to write or just throwing myself in headlong to enjoy it now.

This morning, my ESL student had some hard questions about English words, and I think I confused her more with my explanations. I'm so glad she wants to learn. She is so faithful to learning, and comes every class. She's basically the only reason that we keep the class I teach open. Who knew I'd be meeting with a Vietnamese lady every Tuesday in an intimate Music room classroom to teach her English and get almost stumped by her questions in Salt Lake City and get to drive back and see the Capitol framed by misty clouds. So cool.

We replaced our brake pads and rotors by ourselves! to save us money I learned how! I want to do so for other repairs because that was a big issue at the beginning of our marriage. I think cars would be a valuable thing to learn. (I'm a pretty decent piano player now! And I drive stick shift like a natural! (I think))

Tonight is Mermaid's setting apart! I also have to make blondies for a co-workers birthday tomorrow.

A whole year is a long time in Logan! And it'll be even longer than that. Gall, wish us luck.
I get to start DMing again! 😆
~Nymph