Where the heck do I even start? It's been over one and a half semesters up here at Utah State. Atlantean and I made the plunge and we live up here now. But there are so many things that have changed.
I'll start with the first big one. I have developed severe anxiety. It started on the night of Sep. 21st 2019, when I convinced myself I was dying. I convinced myself so well that Atlantean had to take me to the Emergency Room. It is nearly March and we are still finding the way to pay that off lol. That hump of that year was horrible. I was at the lowest I had ever been over Christmas, convincing myself that I was going to die and being completely convinced of a narrative in my head. It took a lot of recovery, and I'm grateful the worst of it was over Winter Break inbetween semesters, and I have had much more success, but I am still struggling with it. It is a long process and a jumbled story, but I can get myself fearing for my life very quickly. It is an uncomfortable and troubling process that I am still trying to work through, though I am happy to say I have made some progress.
I am insanely involved with my campus and I love it. As of now, the week before Spring Break, I have many clubs and groups I am proud I am involved in (on top of 15 credit hours and being a wife, mind you. I love being busy)
I went to my first meeting of the Bird Working Society this morning and I'm actually super stoked to show up on time this next time. If you show up at 8 you get to fill the bird feeders. I'm hoping to help them plan more bird-heavy activities, like visiting aviaries or stuff like that but maybe I'm getting too ambitious. I just met them and they're sweet. It's actually a crazy cool feeling to just look at someone and awkwardly say, "I like birds" and they just awkwardly say it back, and you're both super sincere.
I'm still heavily involved with Aggie Radio. I'm actually teaching an Adobe Audition class tomorrow because I want others to learn it. I offered it to most Slack channels under Aggie Radio. I have created three successful episodes and have gotten nothing back from my producer but, "These are awesome, I have no critiques. You should do this professionally!" which is a pretty good feeling lol. I have a LOT of voice acting meetings every week to try and stock up on the lines so I can make the episodes anytime I want. I am scared to lose the ability of Adobe Audition though so I better get cracking.
I'm trying to prioritize Refit every Saturday morning, which is a dance/zumba fitness class that the Institute offers. I got my friend Steph to say she'll come, but so far we haven't been together because of schedule. Steph is also majorly cool because she'll just willingly wander buildings with me and she loves jazz. It's cool to have a friend like that.
I'm a new DM of our Logan D&D guild and we are actually meeting tonight. We are doing Curse of Strahd and I think it's going well :) We meet at the Logan HeeBeeGeeBeez and the manager there, Chris, is super cool. The building used to be a hot tub store, so they have this cool side room they call the tavern that's totally made out of wood that we get to use.
Atlantean and I recently found a club that meets on Tuesdays at 6 PM who are Shakespeare Improv and I love that! I saw their advertisement on the whiteboard during one of my classes and when I told them about it, they were so thrilled that we had seen it! We acted out Shakespeare scenes and I found a little more of the relaxed part of me that can improv and make people laugh! (I think) We fully intend to go back.
I also informedly just voted on Student Body and I'm proud of myself. I found out where to find their bios and voted according to my gut.
Classes are good. We have Professional Copyediting with my proper English professor (literally. He has a British accent). Then there's Literary Analysis where we are reading very stagnant and depressing books, but the whole class is basically talking about why they're so stagnant and depressing which I find refreshing. Methods & Research and Project Management are kind of hard, and both have one big project we are working on throughout semester, so whoo! And my captioning class is actually a blast. He's a super cool and nice teacher and the assignments are never too hard. Some of them have even been fun! And my Institute class is MEGA Awesome. My mind is blown I go everytime. I need someone from Deseret Book to come in and tape him to sell CDs because he blows my freakin mind everytime. I'm trying to keep studious notes. My patriarchal blessing says to keep Jesus at the center of my life, so that's why I chose this class, (it's Jesus Christ and the Everlasting Gospel) and I have never not regretted something so hard.
Now for the whammy.
I'm pregnant.
Yeah.
We announced it to our parents this past weekend when we went down, which BTW, we only found out the Friday morning before we headed out. Thankfully, early into our marriage, we had bought some announcement mugs, so I just wrapped those suckers up and Atlantean and I made a plan. We kept it cool. No one was expecting it because I'm supposed to finish schooling and all that. My sister Mermaid now works at Shirlyns, so on Saturday, we got the help of one of her co-workers to keep quiet while we went up to the counter and told her we had to get some stuff and we laid down pre-natals, preggie pops and tummy cream. Mermaid freaked out and we explained that we needed her help to film the event tonight when we announced it to our parents. Well, the Kepps are moving to Arizona (to run a lemonade business?) and we hung out in their abandoned (for sale, so pristine. Also, it fetched $15,000 more than selling price because all the Californians are moving over here right now, but not important) and talked about the good ol' days. Well, the conversation got round to our old videos we used to make for book reports so we had to go downstairs to watch them and Mermaid was staring daggers into my head, but I told my mom that I just had presents I so desperately wanted to give her for her birthday. She was hesitant because she wanted this to be about Imp, whose birthday it was soon and didn't want to upstage her, but consented. We gave her our original gift first, a set of three cookie-cutters that represented her, and then gave her and dad the mugs. They opened them together and my father's reaction will go down in history.
You don't surprise my dad. You just don't.
But we did....
His coworker and good friend said he had NEVER seen my dad that shocked.
The mugs had the decal "My New Name is Grandma/Grandpa." and the Kepps were confused as to why my parents were freaking out, so I pulled out the pregnancy test to show everybody. We are very early with this information, but I wanted help and support. We are still figuring out how to tell Wolfman.
For Atlantean's family, we did it a little simpler (it's their sixth grandchild as opposed to their first) and put a 3x5 card with the simple sentence, "We're pregnant" on it for Atlantean's father's birthday present. He was also overjoyed and instantly the family was offering everything they could from babysitting to maternity clothes and I was actually touched by how selfless their love was.
The next person I'm trying to figure out how to tell is my best friend Brownie, but we need to know things are progressing well before we tell anyone. I don't have a history of miscarriages in my family, but we want to be a little more sure. (We definitely took a chance with that Friday shenanigan) I'm getting a blood test done on Monday to confirm and have an OBGYN lined up I guess. Morning sickness is kind of not fun, but it's kind of not horrible yet.
Yeah. So, there's that.
We're gonna get through this semester before we do anything else frankly lol.
That's my life in a nutshell right now!
~Nymph
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