October 6th

So today was the first day I walked to work! Kind of.

I've been kind of freaking out currently about car situation seeing as how Wolfman recently wrecked one of our cars and we were already cutting it close with our driving situation. So now I was the one who had to figure my own situation out, even though I had no clue what to do since Atlantean needs his car to drive to his school down in Taylorsville and then his work down in Salt Lake City. Plus it's stick shift, and it takes me two months in between panic attacks for him to teach me, so suffice to say, progress in that area isn't going well...

So for a few days, I felt very much the victim, like I was hung out to dry and no one cared. Like the high school students were more important than the nearly-wed who needed to get to her consistent job, which, honestly, was asked for a consistent schedule to help her family out, and then it didn't seem to help at all.

So for a couple of days it felt like fighting, and begging my mom to take me, and having to last minutely find a way and then we talked about walking an hour down to TRAX, and I just didn't know what the plan was, and my family, probably intentionally, left me to figure out things for myself, because that's the way of the world.

So today, finally, I figured out if I caught a ride with my brother to CTEC whenever he went back for his 11:30 class, his school is eerily close to my work, so I just walk. I seriously don't know why we didn't come up with this a lot sooner. I get to walk, hence I don't have to jump on the treadmill every morning. I get to be outside - which, hello, my name is Nymph (I love being outside).  And I get to see my brother, who is kind of my favorite sibling. I think it's a win win. PLUS Atlantean commonly has a break from welding between 11:00 - 12:00, so he called me today and we agreed it'd be fine if he had a break to call me every morning, and he said that'd be awesome. It's so funny how panicked I was this last week and then found a solution. I really should have just had more faith that things would work out and that God would help me figure it out, but I secretly think he obscured such an obvious answer from me so that I would have to freak out and realize how to accept disappointment better. Also, Atlantean thinks it's amazing that we've been together 6 or 7 months and we still have many interesting things to talk about. I appreciate that too. :)

Other than that, last night I cuddled with Atlantean, even though I know I really shouldn't since he's sick. I think I am getting a little bit of a postnasal drip cold, but I'm hoping it's nothing worse than that since I have a couple bridal showers this week and I don't wanna get any worse...

Siren and Atlantean's mom are both already getting navy blue dresses for the wedding and I was so happy last night when Atlantean's mom told me she had bought a silver scarf for one of her silver accents. I think that is a fantastic idea and will look so cute on her! Also - Atlantean's brother, whom I adore and I will have to come up with a better name for, made himself a dark blue vest. MADE himself one! For OUR wedding! It is crazy what people will do when you have a big day! It's insane the outpouring of love. Siren sent me pictures and went and tried things on and bought a brand new blue dress. It's crazy how one moment I'm just theorizing, "what if we did this-" such as "what if we did navy blue with silver" and then people just to honor you and the occasion, totally go out of their way to make your special day awesome by buying and thinking about the look of it all. It's really inspiring :) Also - Atlantean's sister (I really need better names) is taking  little piece off of work tomorrow to attend my bridal shower! I mean, how nice can you get! It's all so kind what they're doing! Though I am a little nervous about the color matching, since I've told some peoplle that royal blue would be okay, mainly Sprite. I'm also worried she won't accept the invitation to be my bridesmaid, which I sent a while back, but she still hasn't mentioned.

Let's see... the books I'm reading today at work are "Writer's Market 2018" and "Bicycle Repair."

I have my first lesson as a Gospel Principles Teacher in a while this Sunday.

I also just learned that apparently the girl I replaced up here at the receptionist desk actually wasn't that liked of a girl. Not that I like hearing that, but it does give me hope that I have less big shoes to fill and the people don't think too badly of me and my business-like ways.

Reading "250 Best Paying Jobs" kind of gave me hope yesterday - that my life is not ending when I get married, that there are still so many things to go do and be.

I think I'll be okay,
Nymph