Hey guys! We're almost out of the woods here! Last day of November!
Just a couple things I want covered:
Finances.
Last night, on our way home, I asked Atlantean if we could drive down State Street to show him something Siren and I had seen when we had seen Coco on Tuesday (which is REALLY good BTW- I didn't think the music would get stuck in my head but it REALLY HAS. And the plot is great and the characters are adorable and I highly recommend it! But do be warned of the 20 minute Frozen short in front of it. It was only because I had been pre-warned by family and the internet, so I was prepared and it was actually pretty adorable). But the thing on State Street that I had really wanted to show Atlantean was this graveyard full of giant Christmas light orbs. They were just these giant glowing orbs all over this graveyard. And being the awesome guy my husband is, he suggested we get out and walk around in them. While it took us a while to find a place to park and actually access the graveyard, when we got to the graveyard, we parked and then Atlantean started talking about how he'd like more money.
Now that sounds really bad lol, but I was recently talking about how when we get the chance on Saturday, we should go to Target and use up some of our many giftcards on things I thought we needed, like umbrellas or grilled cheese makers, but Atlantean stopped me when we parked the car and said, "What about what I want?" And I guess he felt left out of the loop and not in charge or even participatory in the finances. And I mean, he's not wrong. I've kind of taken over hoarding the money and keeping track of where the money's going for now. He made a good point, and we talked about finances and our concerns and observations. We were both very honest, stating what we thought should be done. He had had expectations that we would have some extra fun money when we got all this money from the reception, but I had been under the impression that we were going to save it. I felt begrudging and I didn't like feeling that way, but I did not want it to be a "dish it out" when he "deserved" it. This is a partnership and we both need to feel like we are on equal ground, especially when it comes to money. Now, I do think things will change a little bit when we actually get our bank accounts in order, which can't be too far away, right? But there are certain parts of me that feel one way like, "I like being in control of the money" and "I'm good at it anyway" versus the other part of me that makes me feel like a mother and not a wife and that wants him to take a much larger part of finances.
I suppose we'll just have to see where it settles. I just want him to have specific things he wants to buy so we can discuss them, and I know if I just hand him over some fun money, he'll be appreciative, but will feel guilty, and that doesn't feel right. I think he wants both of us to want some extra fun money and to use it up, to want it. I just want to get him through school. I'm okay with waiting. And I honestly don't need a lot of fun, but he might need more of a transition period, because he does like buying fun stuff, and I'm so honored and proud and flattered that he's gone with my crazy financial plans so far, which are honestly very bare minimum. But I have to consider him. He's been so good, only spending money on gas for over three or four months now, that's so amazing! I just wish he felt more appreciated. We just got to the conclusion that he loved what I was doing (though he may have just been being nice, but I think I'm doing well too) and that he was exercising his right as the man to grumble. I still want him to feel better about being included in finances.
I think I was just kind of heartbroken that he felt left out and then realizing that what he was saying was true, that I had been kind of controlling and just taken over. I made excuses with our timeline, and I really do think waiting a little bit for things to settle with money for us to really understand where it's all going or coming from. He'll be able to start full time, we'll both be able to keep an eye on the bank account and hopefully both feel equally accountable.
I just want this to work out, and it's really kind of distressing me. I've never had to have a completely equal partner, and losing control or not knowing where our money is going or not having a backup plan and not having the money scares me like none other. I want to be in control, because I trust myself. But I HAVE to learn to trust him.
Anyway. Thanks for letting me write this all down, I really think this has helped me work through some of my feelings regarding it all.
Other than that, I do also want to go on a quick tangent of what I've been reading, which is the Urban Farm Handbook, which is really blowing me away with how efficient it is at helping laypeople who have no idea what they're doing. I started with the winter chapter and it talked about grains and it got me thinking and really excited to some day have a farm and buy and eat locally, and I'm taking my first steps toward that today by visiting my local market which actually happens to be on my walk home! I'm actually excited because all of these recipes that I received from my bridal shower are all missing mainly perishable ingredients, and I'm going to try to find the two perishable ingredients there today and try and make the dish using local ingredients! I'm looking for ground beef and cottage cheese. We'll see how lucky I get. There's a part of me that thinks they might not be there, but a girl can hope! I could access locally grown food and all on my way home! The proposition of this just makes me excited :) and I'm trying to take the necessary steps toward furthering my dream by starting small!
Excited for what's to come!
~Nymph
Thursday, November 30, 2017
Tuesday, November 28, 2017
November 28th
OKAY REALLY FAST BEFORE I HAVE TO GO
I know I just got done with the wedding post (which took me literally all day guys) But I really fast wanted to shout out to what exactly happened today at work. Today at work, I worked my first full day shift, so that was 8-5. Atleast, that was what my female boss told me, to show up at 8, and I even double-checked because I'd covered for the other receptionist gal in the morning before and I had to show up at 7:30 so apparently I got in trouble for following orders there. Then, halfway through the day, Sunrise Elementary went under lockdown and we received an email and a flood of phone calls from concerned parents. At first I was just telling them what was in the email - that there was an investigation of a bomb threat. But then I got concerned with if I was allowed or even supposed to be telling them that. I figured it was public information, but I still got worried and wanted to be sure. So I went into my boss, but he was in a meeting, and he quickly said, "Just send all the calls to Communications." I didn't love that advice, but I started doing it nonetheless. I tried to call the Communications lady myself to see if this was the right thing to do and all I heard was her say "They keep sending me all their calls" and then she hung up. So I figured something was wrong. I was about to go consult her when she came crazily out of her office saying, "Do NOT send me all these calls. I have to deal with the media. We sent you an email. Tell them what we sent you." I apologized and told her that was what I had been doing all along, but that HR had told me to send the calls to her. She said, "Well they're wrong!" And I basically left her with an "Aye-aye captain!" attitude because she's pretty cool. Later she came back and apologize and said she was "snappy" but honestly I totally got where she was coming from. So I took over. Best part was that the other receptionist building went dead in the middle of it all, no internet, no phone, but I managed it alone as the solo receptionist. And I also got a complicated and confusing phone call in the middle of it all, talking about referrals and whatnot. It was kinda crazy, but pretty fun.
Also, Atlantean got to join me for lunch. He has been getting kind of discouraged lately and I want to cheer him up and see that he has capabilities, but I'm not entirely sure how. I've been reading up on common causes and cures of discouragement. More on that later I suppose. :/
And Siren and I are going to Coco tonight! Though I've heard the Frozen short beforehand is surprisingly and almost exhaustingly long. So... excited for that! Even if Atlantean wants me to come home and snuggle with him, we both agreed we have to keep up relationships with people other than ourselves. I guess.
Whew! I did it! With six minutes to spare!
~Nymph
I know I just got done with the wedding post (which took me literally all day guys) But I really fast wanted to shout out to what exactly happened today at work. Today at work, I worked my first full day shift, so that was 8-5. Atleast, that was what my female boss told me, to show up at 8, and I even double-checked because I'd covered for the other receptionist gal in the morning before and I had to show up at 7:30 so apparently I got in trouble for following orders there. Then, halfway through the day, Sunrise Elementary went under lockdown and we received an email and a flood of phone calls from concerned parents. At first I was just telling them what was in the email - that there was an investigation of a bomb threat. But then I got concerned with if I was allowed or even supposed to be telling them that. I figured it was public information, but I still got worried and wanted to be sure. So I went into my boss, but he was in a meeting, and he quickly said, "Just send all the calls to Communications." I didn't love that advice, but I started doing it nonetheless. I tried to call the Communications lady myself to see if this was the right thing to do and all I heard was her say "They keep sending me all their calls" and then she hung up. So I figured something was wrong. I was about to go consult her when she came crazily out of her office saying, "Do NOT send me all these calls. I have to deal with the media. We sent you an email. Tell them what we sent you." I apologized and told her that was what I had been doing all along, but that HR had told me to send the calls to her. She said, "Well they're wrong!" And I basically left her with an "Aye-aye captain!" attitude because she's pretty cool. Later she came back and apologize and said she was "snappy" but honestly I totally got where she was coming from. So I took over. Best part was that the other receptionist building went dead in the middle of it all, no internet, no phone, but I managed it alone as the solo receptionist. And I also got a complicated and confusing phone call in the middle of it all, talking about referrals and whatnot. It was kinda crazy, but pretty fun.
Also, Atlantean got to join me for lunch. He has been getting kind of discouraged lately and I want to cheer him up and see that he has capabilities, but I'm not entirely sure how. I've been reading up on common causes and cures of discouragement. More on that later I suppose. :/
And Siren and I are going to Coco tonight! Though I've heard the Frozen short beforehand is surprisingly and almost exhaustingly long. So... excited for that! Even if Atlantean wants me to come home and snuggle with him, we both agreed we have to keep up relationships with people other than ourselves. I guess.
Whew! I did it! With six minutes to spare!
~Nymph
November 18th (a recap of the WEDDING)
So yeah! Hi! I'm married! Atlantean and I are finally and officially married!
So where exactly do I start on the long story that was our big day...
I guess from the beginning.
All the waiting (which eventually lead up to the creation of this blog) had finally lead up to the day of. We woke up, and did what we had been planning called The Grand Reveal, which is where I showed Atlantean my dress before we actually went to the temple so he could see it. I had also prepared a speech for him, one that I had decently memorized, but had little confidence in, which God gave me at the last moment. The plan was to meet him in the abandoned city that we had created the night before with many of our friends help, and I would be standing there in my dress as he entered and then I would give him my speech. He also would cut my choker, an old piece of string that had been tied around my neck since I was at IFA in November, which meant it had been on my neck an entire year. He also dressed in his rented white tux, and when he came in, there I was, standing in my fur and my golden gloves. I was a little overwhelmed, and kind of buried my head in his chest, kind of crying unflatteringly, but then I finally got the gumption to begin my speech, and I think I did pretty well with God's help, even if I don't think it penetrated Atlantean like I had hoped it would. Then he said a couple kind words, and offered his arm in which we walked out together. Later he had said, (multiple times especially to guests in the line) that he had had no idea what to expect when he saw my dress, but that he had been pleasantly surprised nonetheless, that it had blown his mind, that it had definitely exceeded his expectations and that he loved it.
We left to go prepare for the temple. It was weird sitting in my house with my well-dressed family just waiting to head out. The temple we chose was beautiful. The woodwork was stunning. We had to wait a while in the bride's room, but it was a beautiful room, and one of the only ones with natural lighting. The entire place was burnt down a couple years back, but when it was rebuilt, it was rebuilt to look the same, and with a pioneer style, which I actually really adored. I wasn't scared at all. I was so calm. And I know that was because I had prayed to God for peace the entire week and gone out of my way to read an entire chapter of scripture every night. We had also been mentally preparing ourselves for this for seven months. I felt no nervousness. I was completely calm.
We went straightaway with the legal documents to the legal department in the temple, and that was relatively painless. I then met back up with Atlantean in the foyer after changing and we did the short veil. The lady who helped me was really very pretty and calming and Atlantean liked what he discovered about me a lot. Then we waited in the Celestial Room, where I still felt so calm. No uprising nervousness. Our sealer pulled us out and explained what was about to happen. He was adorable older man named Ron Smith. Then he had us continue to wait in the Celestial Room. Beautiful room. Atlantean and I admired the décor, and even joked about the chandelier looking like a very impressive rocket ship. Ron then pulled us out again to come into the sealing room.
We have the prettiest sealing room I have ever seen. Not that I have been in many, but ours had large stained glass windows, and was just comfy enough that I didn't feel so separated from my loved ones, but also just enough space. I loved it very much. It was cool and crazy to just walk into a room and see so many familiar faces. Our sealer spoke a while and I'm really honestly glad he was not all that long-winded. He encouraged us to hold hands when I hesitated. He seemed like a really nice guy, though I don't really recall what he said, but my mom and my grandma said they will try to piece together what they remember to write it down for us which I think is really sweet. I didn't even cry at the alter, just stared hard into my beloved's eyes. I think Atlantean teared up a little bit. But I was so calm, and so ready and so determined to start this new process of my life. I just stared determinedly into Atlantean's eyes the entire time through. There was no awkwardness, there was no time. There was only us and the promises and commitments we made there. When he said "Yes" that was when I felt an actual pang in my soul. And when I said "Yes" I swear it resonated through the room. I liked how high-roofed the room was. I felt like there could have been angels there. Our sealing was beautiful.
Afterward, we kissed over the alter and stood back at the couch to exchange rings according to the sealers instruction. This time I let Atlantean put it all the way on my finger without helping. I managed to slide his on pretty easily as well. Then we received hugs from everybody. I felt filled with the spirit and exceedingly grateful and happy. It was a wonderful buzzy feeling. We were finally married!
Everyone left the room and we got a quick chance to glance in the mirrors in the room that symbolize eternity. The sealer pointed out that we can see our spouse much easier than we can see ourselves, and that we should keep it that way. Then we were ushered out into an elevator into which Atlantean's mom totally got left behind! And then Atlantean and I separated to go get dressed. We got dressed in our golden and white outfits and then were led upstairs by my good friend and guide the entire time - Diane Allen. They led us upstairs and we waited while Atlantean's father got dressed so he could go out before us. Then we got to have our moment, where we pushed our way through the double doors. We decided we would wave, but I totally spaced it lol. Atlantean waved, but I just looked out joyously over the crowd that cheered as we walked out. We kissed in front of all of them, and then my siblings ran up and hugged me. We went down amongst the crowd and my mom instantly began assembling pictures. We went around the building to the other side to take large family pictures and then smaller pictures. Atlantean and I stayed in most of them. It was so cool to see how many supportive people were there and stuck around to take pictures. We had atleast three cameramen and women. A lot of smiling and a lot candid pictures as Atlantean and I teased and played with each other between the shoots. I do get a little frustrated looking at the pictures because my bangs are doing the EXACT thing I hate it when they do and I KNEW they were doing it the entire time, but I didn't have a brush to fix it. I hate it when they part down the middle. I like it better when they are all fluffy across, and it only takes one brush swipe to fix. But oh well. This is how I go down in history lol.
I'm just looking over some of the pictures lol. Siren's mom caught this live video of me bouncing up and down while we're waiting for more pictures to be taken, and my mom took a live one of Atlantean and I eating at the reception and we're all looking at the camera like, "What do you want?"
Ah, good times.
It was only ten days ago lol.
Anyway! During the photoshoot - lo and behold! my cousin and my uncle came! All the way from Africa! Amazing! They had said they would be able to miraculously make it but it was also just cool to finally see them arrive! It was really cool :)
After pictures, everyone left except my mom, Imp and Atlantean and I. Imp helped us take some special couple pictures with my mom's direction. One of them is my new profile picture. I did start to get a little bratty here, since they kept putting me in positions where I was facing the sun and I already didn't have sunglasses and I started to get a LITTLE snappy. But they got some great pictures and we packed up in the van (which my dad agreed to let us ride limo-style, so with the middle seats down) and headed to the reception.
At the reception, we gratefully received our first married meal of Chik-Fil-A complete with Holiday Cookie Shake that my family had picked up for us. We shared our Holiday Cookie Shake (because guys. GUYS. If you hadn't had it yet- GO GET IT. I'm, like, not the kind of person who recommends food, but this is one of Atlantean and I's FAVORITE) We ate and then sat and waited, greeted the few that trickled in, and as soon as we noticed that people were starting to trickle in, I dragged Atlantean over to the trellis where we stood for the next hour and a half. I even felt nauseous at one point and told my parents I couldn't go much longer. My dad announced that we'd be going a little late - but assured everyone there WAS a program. We had to give up the shoe game we wanted to play considering the line was out the door of people who wanted to come say hi and it didn't feel right to try to "speed" any of them along. But we stuck it out.
Though, periodically, throughout the night, people would come up to us asking what to do about our stolen car. Now we thought that we were either being pranked, but Aos Si came up to Atlantean and asked if he could have the keys and then my brother and his friend came up and said the car had been stolen, and then Atlantean's sister-in-law came up and told us the same thing like they expected us to have some sort of solution for a problem we weren't even truly aware of the circumstances in.
It turns out (and Atlantean admits to maybe having a conversation that could have lead Aos Si to think this) but Aos Si had taken Atlantean's keys to steal the car so that no one could decorate it. He had done it with noble purposes, and he drove the car around and away from everyone waiting at the reception to decorate it and in a panic everyone was coming to tell us. It only dawned on me later what was happening when they said it was Aos Si that had stolen the car, because he would never do an unkind thing in his life. When we finally were getting ready to leave for the honeymoon, Atlantean's sister-in-law gave me the phone because she said Aos Si didn't believe her that it was me or Atlantean that wanted him to come back because he thought they were trying to trick him into bringing it back. So I took the phone from her and maaaaaaybe lost my temper a little bit since I was already stressing out and becoming a semi-bridezilla, but I just yellecd into the phone. "AOS SI. BRING THE CAR BACK NOW." And he said, "Is this Nymph?" And I said "YES" and he said, "Okay." And I mumbled "Good heavens" and hung up the phone. He promptly brought the car back around. We went over on our program a little bit up until 8:30 and we got to wait for them to haphazardly decorate the car before we ran through the streamers and race to our car where we sped off to the honeymoon lol.
But let me back up a little bit - because while leaving the reception was fun and the beginning was fun, there was a program in there we didn't get to talk about.
Now I will admit that I made a few mistakes on my wedding day. Namely, I refused a couple of pictures because I was getting really stressed out. Most things were taken care of, but schedule-wise, I just couldn't backtrack when things got hectic. Like when I threw my bouquet, not only did I have to tell my friend's parents that I couldn't take a selfie with them because I had to go throw the bouquet, but I also refused a picture with the little girl who had caught the bouquet because I was in such a rush to go change and get onto the next thing in the program. I did get a selfie with my friend's parents eventually (even if they were having trouble with their modern camera...) but I did still feel bad about not getting a picture with the little girl because that little girl in particular is very dear to me and the lady who asked me to take a picture was someone I would never want to hurt and I sincerely hope she is not mad at me because all I could say when she asked was "I'm sorry, Mary" because I was really stressed out. I just .. I apologize.
After the bouquet toss though, Atlantean did agree to do the garter, so he stuck his face under there and fetched it while I drank a glass of water, cool as a cucumber. I had to remove my shoe haphazardly while he did it and his face was so red when he came out, but he did it entirely with his teeth! And he flung it into the crowd where Spriggan and Imp's brother (let's call him Elf) and Satyr TOTALLY leapt for it. The funny thing Elf has a girlfriend on a mission, so I thought it was fitting that he leapt for it so heartily. (EDIT: Elf did not actually leap for it, only Spriggan and Satyr)
Then we had to cut our cake. This was accomplished by forgetting all the knives and then simultaneously calling "AOS SI" so that his brother would come out and hand us a full blown sword to cut the cake with. I don't know how Aos Si accomplished this considering he was in the middle of a heist to steal and protect our car, but he came out with the blade all polished and in a paper towel sheath and we cut the cake with it. Unfortunately, it appears we literally did forget all of the knives so the rest of the cake had to be cut with the sword and nothing else lol.
Ope, I just received a newsflash from my husband whom I'm consulting on some of the details. Apparently it was Spriggan himself who leapt for it. That seems more fitting. Though it would have been cool had Elf caught it but oh well. Ain't his personality anyway (though he totally should get married soon. Go Elf!)
After we cut the cake, we headed out to go get ready for our dance. I actually started to go into a little bit of shock because of just the overwhelming night, my mom really tried to calm me down, and was there for me every step of the way, helping me out of my dress and into my dancing dress. I re-entered the reception hall and prepared to dance, but my dad began saying, "And now, something that is actually a surprise to Nymph, a little something her siblings put together." Gnome pulled up chairs for Atlantean and I and I sat down with them, willing myself not to cry no matter what was about to happen.
My family had prepared a rendition specific to Atlantean and I of For Forever from Dear Evan Hansen that apparently they had been working on for weeks and my sister had been throwing me off the trail for weeks as well, saying they had been planning something, but nothing had fallen into place (which honestly does NOT sound like my family but I fell for it). Wolfman and Mermaid sang it to us and I of course started crying ungracefully because some of the lyrics were changed about how this was a great change and how they looked over and saw him kneeling down and how we walk away together. It would've been a beautiful song on it's own, but it was made even more beautiful by the fact that my siblings started to break down too. They actually didn't make it through the song. They had to start over once and even then couldn't make it through, their voices breaking. I hugged them hard afterward, and my boss was so touched by this that he posted the video on Facebook saying, "This is what love looks like." The twins even joked that they had joked about crying and breaking down, but they had never actually expected to, but we all thought it turned out for the better either way.
So then we began our dance. The dance we had been practicing for almost over seven months that we had taken and put to the song I had always wanted at my wedding. And guys. We performed it perfectly.
Sometimes I'm scared my sister only tells me what I want to hear, but she did mention that two of the people who had helped us choreograph the dance were totally fan-girling in the back as we pulled off the moves. But after the climatic and emotional stunt that was my siblings heartfelt singing, I felt fueled and ready to perform my own celebratory piece. Atlantean later agreed, he said he felt like he was on such an adrenaline rush that he could have held me all the way up on our lifts. I have only seen the video my boss took of the dance (which he couldn't post on Facebook because the music is copyrighted but he made me a flash drive anyway) but we looked phenomenal. Now, we're not dancers, but we were very in-sync. The moment where we dance with my parents was very cool and well-timed, and I know it sounds silly, but I felt God in that choreography. Even in that whole endeavor. It was our first big project together that we worked at and collaborated on together, but when we pulled it off, we pulled it off big, and we did it well, and I will forever be proud of us for that.
Plus it was fun :) I love to dance :)
I do want to mention one thing though - I had always wanted a dance floor at my wedding/reception. I didn't get an official one since we had to cut it all short due to fiascos, but I will mention this one moment that really made my life - I glanced over at the unofficial dance floor as we waited and I chatted and cried with Siren and Imp, and guys, I saw a dance floor full of people. Fathers with little daughters on their feet, young twelve year old girls twirling around each other, and I thought, what a full and beautiful dance floor. And for that split instant, I was so happy, so proud. I had a dance floor, and enough people who wanted to fill it. That was one of the best moments of the night for me.
That was our program. After that, we waited around, tried to retrieve our car with the limited knowledge we were given. I did feel a little stressed out beause I felt alone in having to have everything in it's right location, but we managed it and headed off to the honeymoon!
Honeymoon, honeymoon ... what can I tell you about the honeymoon. We went to the Alaskan Inn in Ogden where we were surprised to hear by the man at the front desk that we were the third couple to be married in the Provo City Center temple and retreat here that he had heard of today. We went up to our Denali Suite upstairs, unpacked and well... experimented...
Good news is Atlantean fits in the bathtub! (Rare for a giant) and he enjoyed taking a bath with me since he rarely gets baths in general. Halfway through the whole trip, we got to upgrade from a suite to a cabin for free since they wanted us to experience both. The breakfasts were awesome, we got to pick whatever we wanted and they'd just bring it to us. The atmosphere was darling and very quaint and we had a very good time there talking about whatever at 4 AM in the morning and getting to know each other in a way that neither of us had been able to before. Some people say that it doesn't feel real at first, and maybe it just was the waiting or the honeymoon high, but I felt it very real that night, that he was truly my husband and I was truly his wife, and that we were finally together, with nothing to part us. It is wonderful. And nothing in my feelings have changed since then towards him.
Since then, we've been home :) At our new apartment and enjoying the feeling of regular life, but with each other. No one's telling us we can't anymore, nothing is keeping us apart. It's us against the world now, and I wouldn't want anyone else on my side.
On a side note, my cat Fuzzy is settling in pretty well to being an indoor cat. While she is still annoying, meows too much and can be a little over-persistent, paranoid and randomly very scared, she is still my wonderful cat. I've had to get used to her being in so much because usually I get a break from her, so maybe this is good practice with having kids. It's not like you can just pick up and leave. You come home to them and continue to have to take care of this little thing which either wants nothing to do with you or is begging for your attention. Atlantean's taken quite a fancy to her as well. And life together has been very nice. We get ready in the morning together, snuggle up in bed at night, switch off who's on food (though I try to be on top of it) I try to take his shoes off when he gets home and overall, it's a very good life. We went to our new church recently and joined the choir. I am actually impressed by what a good community it is. Everyone calls each other by their first name because they are all actually old chums, and I might regret saying this, but there's no other society I'd rather walk in on and be apart of . I'm kind of excited. Also Atlantean and I semi-joined the choir even if he fell asleep three times in it lol.
But. New life, here we come :)
~Nymph
So where exactly do I start on the long story that was our big day...
I guess from the beginning.
All the waiting (which eventually lead up to the creation of this blog) had finally lead up to the day of. We woke up, and did what we had been planning called The Grand Reveal, which is where I showed Atlantean my dress before we actually went to the temple so he could see it. I had also prepared a speech for him, one that I had decently memorized, but had little confidence in, which God gave me at the last moment. The plan was to meet him in the abandoned city that we had created the night before with many of our friends help, and I would be standing there in my dress as he entered and then I would give him my speech. He also would cut my choker, an old piece of string that had been tied around my neck since I was at IFA in November, which meant it had been on my neck an entire year. He also dressed in his rented white tux, and when he came in, there I was, standing in my fur and my golden gloves. I was a little overwhelmed, and kind of buried my head in his chest, kind of crying unflatteringly, but then I finally got the gumption to begin my speech, and I think I did pretty well with God's help, even if I don't think it penetrated Atlantean like I had hoped it would. Then he said a couple kind words, and offered his arm in which we walked out together. Later he had said, (multiple times especially to guests in the line) that he had had no idea what to expect when he saw my dress, but that he had been pleasantly surprised nonetheless, that it had blown his mind, that it had definitely exceeded his expectations and that he loved it.
We left to go prepare for the temple. It was weird sitting in my house with my well-dressed family just waiting to head out. The temple we chose was beautiful. The woodwork was stunning. We had to wait a while in the bride's room, but it was a beautiful room, and one of the only ones with natural lighting. The entire place was burnt down a couple years back, but when it was rebuilt, it was rebuilt to look the same, and with a pioneer style, which I actually really adored. I wasn't scared at all. I was so calm. And I know that was because I had prayed to God for peace the entire week and gone out of my way to read an entire chapter of scripture every night. We had also been mentally preparing ourselves for this for seven months. I felt no nervousness. I was completely calm.
We went straightaway with the legal documents to the legal department in the temple, and that was relatively painless. I then met back up with Atlantean in the foyer after changing and we did the short veil. The lady who helped me was really very pretty and calming and Atlantean liked what he discovered about me a lot. Then we waited in the Celestial Room, where I still felt so calm. No uprising nervousness. Our sealer pulled us out and explained what was about to happen. He was adorable older man named Ron Smith. Then he had us continue to wait in the Celestial Room. Beautiful room. Atlantean and I admired the décor, and even joked about the chandelier looking like a very impressive rocket ship. Ron then pulled us out again to come into the sealing room.
We have the prettiest sealing room I have ever seen. Not that I have been in many, but ours had large stained glass windows, and was just comfy enough that I didn't feel so separated from my loved ones, but also just enough space. I loved it very much. It was cool and crazy to just walk into a room and see so many familiar faces. Our sealer spoke a while and I'm really honestly glad he was not all that long-winded. He encouraged us to hold hands when I hesitated. He seemed like a really nice guy, though I don't really recall what he said, but my mom and my grandma said they will try to piece together what they remember to write it down for us which I think is really sweet. I didn't even cry at the alter, just stared hard into my beloved's eyes. I think Atlantean teared up a little bit. But I was so calm, and so ready and so determined to start this new process of my life. I just stared determinedly into Atlantean's eyes the entire time through. There was no awkwardness, there was no time. There was only us and the promises and commitments we made there. When he said "Yes" that was when I felt an actual pang in my soul. And when I said "Yes" I swear it resonated through the room. I liked how high-roofed the room was. I felt like there could have been angels there. Our sealing was beautiful.
Afterward, we kissed over the alter and stood back at the couch to exchange rings according to the sealers instruction. This time I let Atlantean put it all the way on my finger without helping. I managed to slide his on pretty easily as well. Then we received hugs from everybody. I felt filled with the spirit and exceedingly grateful and happy. It was a wonderful buzzy feeling. We were finally married!
Everyone left the room and we got a quick chance to glance in the mirrors in the room that symbolize eternity. The sealer pointed out that we can see our spouse much easier than we can see ourselves, and that we should keep it that way. Then we were ushered out into an elevator into which Atlantean's mom totally got left behind! And then Atlantean and I separated to go get dressed. We got dressed in our golden and white outfits and then were led upstairs by my good friend and guide the entire time - Diane Allen. They led us upstairs and we waited while Atlantean's father got dressed so he could go out before us. Then we got to have our moment, where we pushed our way through the double doors. We decided we would wave, but I totally spaced it lol. Atlantean waved, but I just looked out joyously over the crowd that cheered as we walked out. We kissed in front of all of them, and then my siblings ran up and hugged me. We went down amongst the crowd and my mom instantly began assembling pictures. We went around the building to the other side to take large family pictures and then smaller pictures. Atlantean and I stayed in most of them. It was so cool to see how many supportive people were there and stuck around to take pictures. We had atleast three cameramen and women. A lot of smiling and a lot candid pictures as Atlantean and I teased and played with each other between the shoots. I do get a little frustrated looking at the pictures because my bangs are doing the EXACT thing I hate it when they do and I KNEW they were doing it the entire time, but I didn't have a brush to fix it. I hate it when they part down the middle. I like it better when they are all fluffy across, and it only takes one brush swipe to fix. But oh well. This is how I go down in history lol.
I'm just looking over some of the pictures lol. Siren's mom caught this live video of me bouncing up and down while we're waiting for more pictures to be taken, and my mom took a live one of Atlantean and I eating at the reception and we're all looking at the camera like, "What do you want?"
Ah, good times.
It was only ten days ago lol.
Anyway! During the photoshoot - lo and behold! my cousin and my uncle came! All the way from Africa! Amazing! They had said they would be able to miraculously make it but it was also just cool to finally see them arrive! It was really cool :)
After pictures, everyone left except my mom, Imp and Atlantean and I. Imp helped us take some special couple pictures with my mom's direction. One of them is my new profile picture. I did start to get a little bratty here, since they kept putting me in positions where I was facing the sun and I already didn't have sunglasses and I started to get a LITTLE snappy. But they got some great pictures and we packed up in the van (which my dad agreed to let us ride limo-style, so with the middle seats down) and headed to the reception.
At the reception, we gratefully received our first married meal of Chik-Fil-A complete with Holiday Cookie Shake that my family had picked up for us. We shared our Holiday Cookie Shake (because guys. GUYS. If you hadn't had it yet- GO GET IT. I'm, like, not the kind of person who recommends food, but this is one of Atlantean and I's FAVORITE) We ate and then sat and waited, greeted the few that trickled in, and as soon as we noticed that people were starting to trickle in, I dragged Atlantean over to the trellis where we stood for the next hour and a half. I even felt nauseous at one point and told my parents I couldn't go much longer. My dad announced that we'd be going a little late - but assured everyone there WAS a program. We had to give up the shoe game we wanted to play considering the line was out the door of people who wanted to come say hi and it didn't feel right to try to "speed" any of them along. But we stuck it out.
Though, periodically, throughout the night, people would come up to us asking what to do about our stolen car. Now we thought that we were either being pranked, but Aos Si came up to Atlantean and asked if he could have the keys and then my brother and his friend came up and said the car had been stolen, and then Atlantean's sister-in-law came up and told us the same thing like they expected us to have some sort of solution for a problem we weren't even truly aware of the circumstances in.
It turns out (and Atlantean admits to maybe having a conversation that could have lead Aos Si to think this) but Aos Si had taken Atlantean's keys to steal the car so that no one could decorate it. He had done it with noble purposes, and he drove the car around and away from everyone waiting at the reception to decorate it and in a panic everyone was coming to tell us. It only dawned on me later what was happening when they said it was Aos Si that had stolen the car, because he would never do an unkind thing in his life. When we finally were getting ready to leave for the honeymoon, Atlantean's sister-in-law gave me the phone because she said Aos Si didn't believe her that it was me or Atlantean that wanted him to come back because he thought they were trying to trick him into bringing it back. So I took the phone from her and maaaaaaybe lost my temper a little bit since I was already stressing out and becoming a semi-bridezilla, but I just yellecd into the phone. "AOS SI. BRING THE CAR BACK NOW." And he said, "Is this Nymph?" And I said "YES" and he said, "Okay." And I mumbled "Good heavens" and hung up the phone. He promptly brought the car back around. We went over on our program a little bit up until 8:30 and we got to wait for them to haphazardly decorate the car before we ran through the streamers and race to our car where we sped off to the honeymoon lol.
But let me back up a little bit - because while leaving the reception was fun and the beginning was fun, there was a program in there we didn't get to talk about.
Now I will admit that I made a few mistakes on my wedding day. Namely, I refused a couple of pictures because I was getting really stressed out. Most things were taken care of, but schedule-wise, I just couldn't backtrack when things got hectic. Like when I threw my bouquet, not only did I have to tell my friend's parents that I couldn't take a selfie with them because I had to go throw the bouquet, but I also refused a picture with the little girl who had caught the bouquet because I was in such a rush to go change and get onto the next thing in the program. I did get a selfie with my friend's parents eventually (even if they were having trouble with their modern camera...) but I did still feel bad about not getting a picture with the little girl because that little girl in particular is very dear to me and the lady who asked me to take a picture was someone I would never want to hurt and I sincerely hope she is not mad at me because all I could say when she asked was "I'm sorry, Mary" because I was really stressed out. I just .. I apologize.
After the bouquet toss though, Atlantean did agree to do the garter, so he stuck his face under there and fetched it while I drank a glass of water, cool as a cucumber. I had to remove my shoe haphazardly while he did it and his face was so red when he came out, but he did it entirely with his teeth! And he flung it into the crowd where Spriggan and Imp's brother (let's call him Elf) and Satyr TOTALLY leapt for it. The funny thing Elf has a girlfriend on a mission, so I thought it was fitting that he leapt for it so heartily. (EDIT: Elf did not actually leap for it, only Spriggan and Satyr)
Then we had to cut our cake. This was accomplished by forgetting all the knives and then simultaneously calling "AOS SI" so that his brother would come out and hand us a full blown sword to cut the cake with. I don't know how Aos Si accomplished this considering he was in the middle of a heist to steal and protect our car, but he came out with the blade all polished and in a paper towel sheath and we cut the cake with it. Unfortunately, it appears we literally did forget all of the knives so the rest of the cake had to be cut with the sword and nothing else lol.
Ope, I just received a newsflash from my husband whom I'm consulting on some of the details. Apparently it was Spriggan himself who leapt for it. That seems more fitting. Though it would have been cool had Elf caught it but oh well. Ain't his personality anyway (though he totally should get married soon. Go Elf!)
After we cut the cake, we headed out to go get ready for our dance. I actually started to go into a little bit of shock because of just the overwhelming night, my mom really tried to calm me down, and was there for me every step of the way, helping me out of my dress and into my dancing dress. I re-entered the reception hall and prepared to dance, but my dad began saying, "And now, something that is actually a surprise to Nymph, a little something her siblings put together." Gnome pulled up chairs for Atlantean and I and I sat down with them, willing myself not to cry no matter what was about to happen.
My family had prepared a rendition specific to Atlantean and I of For Forever from Dear Evan Hansen that apparently they had been working on for weeks and my sister had been throwing me off the trail for weeks as well, saying they had been planning something, but nothing had fallen into place (which honestly does NOT sound like my family but I fell for it). Wolfman and Mermaid sang it to us and I of course started crying ungracefully because some of the lyrics were changed about how this was a great change and how they looked over and saw him kneeling down and how we walk away together. It would've been a beautiful song on it's own, but it was made even more beautiful by the fact that my siblings started to break down too. They actually didn't make it through the song. They had to start over once and even then couldn't make it through, their voices breaking. I hugged them hard afterward, and my boss was so touched by this that he posted the video on Facebook saying, "This is what love looks like." The twins even joked that they had joked about crying and breaking down, but they had never actually expected to, but we all thought it turned out for the better either way.
So then we began our dance. The dance we had been practicing for almost over seven months that we had taken and put to the song I had always wanted at my wedding. And guys. We performed it perfectly.
Sometimes I'm scared my sister only tells me what I want to hear, but she did mention that two of the people who had helped us choreograph the dance were totally fan-girling in the back as we pulled off the moves. But after the climatic and emotional stunt that was my siblings heartfelt singing, I felt fueled and ready to perform my own celebratory piece. Atlantean later agreed, he said he felt like he was on such an adrenaline rush that he could have held me all the way up on our lifts. I have only seen the video my boss took of the dance (which he couldn't post on Facebook because the music is copyrighted but he made me a flash drive anyway) but we looked phenomenal. Now, we're not dancers, but we were very in-sync. The moment where we dance with my parents was very cool and well-timed, and I know it sounds silly, but I felt God in that choreography. Even in that whole endeavor. It was our first big project together that we worked at and collaborated on together, but when we pulled it off, we pulled it off big, and we did it well, and I will forever be proud of us for that.
Plus it was fun :) I love to dance :)
I do want to mention one thing though - I had always wanted a dance floor at my wedding/reception. I didn't get an official one since we had to cut it all short due to fiascos, but I will mention this one moment that really made my life - I glanced over at the unofficial dance floor as we waited and I chatted and cried with Siren and Imp, and guys, I saw a dance floor full of people. Fathers with little daughters on their feet, young twelve year old girls twirling around each other, and I thought, what a full and beautiful dance floor. And for that split instant, I was so happy, so proud. I had a dance floor, and enough people who wanted to fill it. That was one of the best moments of the night for me.
That was our program. After that, we waited around, tried to retrieve our car with the limited knowledge we were given. I did feel a little stressed out beause I felt alone in having to have everything in it's right location, but we managed it and headed off to the honeymoon!
Honeymoon, honeymoon ... what can I tell you about the honeymoon. We went to the Alaskan Inn in Ogden where we were surprised to hear by the man at the front desk that we were the third couple to be married in the Provo City Center temple and retreat here that he had heard of today. We went up to our Denali Suite upstairs, unpacked and well... experimented...
Good news is Atlantean fits in the bathtub! (Rare for a giant) and he enjoyed taking a bath with me since he rarely gets baths in general. Halfway through the whole trip, we got to upgrade from a suite to a cabin for free since they wanted us to experience both. The breakfasts were awesome, we got to pick whatever we wanted and they'd just bring it to us. The atmosphere was darling and very quaint and we had a very good time there talking about whatever at 4 AM in the morning and getting to know each other in a way that neither of us had been able to before. Some people say that it doesn't feel real at first, and maybe it just was the waiting or the honeymoon high, but I felt it very real that night, that he was truly my husband and I was truly his wife, and that we were finally together, with nothing to part us. It is wonderful. And nothing in my feelings have changed since then towards him.
Since then, we've been home :) At our new apartment and enjoying the feeling of regular life, but with each other. No one's telling us we can't anymore, nothing is keeping us apart. It's us against the world now, and I wouldn't want anyone else on my side.
On a side note, my cat Fuzzy is settling in pretty well to being an indoor cat. While she is still annoying, meows too much and can be a little over-persistent, paranoid and randomly very scared, she is still my wonderful cat. I've had to get used to her being in so much because usually I get a break from her, so maybe this is good practice with having kids. It's not like you can just pick up and leave. You come home to them and continue to have to take care of this little thing which either wants nothing to do with you or is begging for your attention. Atlantean's taken quite a fancy to her as well. And life together has been very nice. We get ready in the morning together, snuggle up in bed at night, switch off who's on food (though I try to be on top of it) I try to take his shoes off when he gets home and overall, it's a very good life. We went to our new church recently and joined the choir. I am actually impressed by what a good community it is. Everyone calls each other by their first name because they are all actually old chums, and I might regret saying this, but there's no other society I'd rather walk in on and be apart of . I'm kind of excited. Also Atlantean and I semi-joined the choir even if he fell asleep three times in it lol.
But. New life, here we come :)
~Nymph
Monday, November 27, 2017
November 27th
I know I should probably write about the wedding, but I have a really long shift tomorrow so I'll try to tackle the whole thing then.
Other than that-
Hi!
I'm married :)
But I wanted to write this post not to talk about the awesome days I've been having with my wonderful husband up til now - because I assure you - they are fantastic, and worth mentioning, and I will attempt to cover them tomorrow, but as for now- I just wanna write about what a cool day it's been so far today. And how nice everyone has been to me.
First off, I really think it is starting to hit Atlantean today some core principles of life - and that is work. Today is the first day we've returned to work since our wedding, and while it wasn't fun, it felt like it was finally time. He actually came to visit me today at my work between his school and work and I got to talk with him for ten minutes and eat lunch with him here, because I'd made him lunch. And he really just started talking about how hard work is important, and goals and how he can say he'll do grand things, but how much effort actually goes into them is important to consider, and I think that realization is just beginning to really dawn on him, that things don't just happen. You push them into motion, and then keep pushing. And I don't want to put words into his mouth, but it really seems like what he's thinking. For instance, him and I really would like to someday build a spaceship and run simulations out of it. Yeah. We know it sounds crazy. But he realizes he can't expect something like that out of himself suddenly. I kept telling him that he has to ramp up to it. I love the serious side of my husband and I'm glad he's going through these current growths. He's very attractive when he's serious and thinking and really desiring to do good. I happen to love him very much :3
As for another amazing thing - everyone has been so nice to me!
Now I did expect a lot of attention when I got back, everyone asking about the wedding because they're nice. I expected that. But what I did not expect was other shows of love. Like when my boss showed me the video he had recorded of my dance or the song at my wedding, and while he tried to post it on Facebook for me to see it (it wouldn't let him because the music is copyrited) he then eventually put it on a flash drive for me to take home and that means the world to me :) I also have had people ask me about the wedding of course, but some have gone out of their way to ask when they get to see pictures or to tell me how beautiful the ceremony was. One receptionist today was having a hard day, and was even crying uncontrollably behind her desk, and while the other coworkers comforted her, and I tried to stay respectfully out of it, she still asked me how I was doing and congratulated me when she next saw me even though her eyes were red and puffy and she was still recovering from whatever was causing her distress. Today was also my first day walking to work, and while it was pretty long (prooooobably should have stretched) it was pretty cool, and while I can't promise how long it will be "fun" I still have people at my work very much concerned for me, regarding the decreasing temperatures. My fellow receptionist told me I should make Atlantean sell his car so we could buy me one so I'd have a car to get to work, which was ridiculous, but I appreciated the sentiment, and then just now, I had a lady who I had previously thought was pretty tough and maybe even a little cold (her job almost demands she be so) she just slightly mentioned that she doesn't live too far away and to give her a call if I ever need a ride home, and I really appreciated that. Not that I am even in possession of her number, but I certainly appreciate the offer. I might take some of them up on it, because it is very kind. But I'm just kind of ... shocked by how nice my culture and state is. I am really growing fond of the people I work with because they just always seem to be fond of me. The Superintendent of Canyons School District even introduced himself to Atlantean when he came for lunch.
Say what you will about Utah, that we are over saturated with Mormons, bad drivers, polygamists, whatever. But I love my state, and I tend to love the people. I have met very few unkind people in Utah. I trust my state, and I love many of the good value cultural norms we have, and I'm proud of it's people. Just wanted to share that with you.
I promise I'll let you know stuffs about the wedding lol,
Nymph
(Also - I swear I have a superpower to avoid gossip)
Other than that-
Hi!
I'm married :)
But I wanted to write this post not to talk about the awesome days I've been having with my wonderful husband up til now - because I assure you - they are fantastic, and worth mentioning, and I will attempt to cover them tomorrow, but as for now- I just wanna write about what a cool day it's been so far today. And how nice everyone has been to me.
First off, I really think it is starting to hit Atlantean today some core principles of life - and that is work. Today is the first day we've returned to work since our wedding, and while it wasn't fun, it felt like it was finally time. He actually came to visit me today at my work between his school and work and I got to talk with him for ten minutes and eat lunch with him here, because I'd made him lunch. And he really just started talking about how hard work is important, and goals and how he can say he'll do grand things, but how much effort actually goes into them is important to consider, and I think that realization is just beginning to really dawn on him, that things don't just happen. You push them into motion, and then keep pushing. And I don't want to put words into his mouth, but it really seems like what he's thinking. For instance, him and I really would like to someday build a spaceship and run simulations out of it. Yeah. We know it sounds crazy. But he realizes he can't expect something like that out of himself suddenly. I kept telling him that he has to ramp up to it. I love the serious side of my husband and I'm glad he's going through these current growths. He's very attractive when he's serious and thinking and really desiring to do good. I happen to love him very much :3
As for another amazing thing - everyone has been so nice to me!
Now I did expect a lot of attention when I got back, everyone asking about the wedding because they're nice. I expected that. But what I did not expect was other shows of love. Like when my boss showed me the video he had recorded of my dance or the song at my wedding, and while he tried to post it on Facebook for me to see it (it wouldn't let him because the music is copyrited) he then eventually put it on a flash drive for me to take home and that means the world to me :) I also have had people ask me about the wedding of course, but some have gone out of their way to ask when they get to see pictures or to tell me how beautiful the ceremony was. One receptionist today was having a hard day, and was even crying uncontrollably behind her desk, and while the other coworkers comforted her, and I tried to stay respectfully out of it, she still asked me how I was doing and congratulated me when she next saw me even though her eyes were red and puffy and she was still recovering from whatever was causing her distress. Today was also my first day walking to work, and while it was pretty long (prooooobably should have stretched) it was pretty cool, and while I can't promise how long it will be "fun" I still have people at my work very much concerned for me, regarding the decreasing temperatures. My fellow receptionist told me I should make Atlantean sell his car so we could buy me one so I'd have a car to get to work, which was ridiculous, but I appreciated the sentiment, and then just now, I had a lady who I had previously thought was pretty tough and maybe even a little cold (her job almost demands she be so) she just slightly mentioned that she doesn't live too far away and to give her a call if I ever need a ride home, and I really appreciated that. Not that I am even in possession of her number, but I certainly appreciate the offer. I might take some of them up on it, because it is very kind. But I'm just kind of ... shocked by how nice my culture and state is. I am really growing fond of the people I work with because they just always seem to be fond of me. The Superintendent of Canyons School District even introduced himself to Atlantean when he came for lunch.
Say what you will about Utah, that we are over saturated with Mormons, bad drivers, polygamists, whatever. But I love my state, and I tend to love the people. I have met very few unkind people in Utah. I trust my state, and I love many of the good value cultural norms we have, and I'm proud of it's people. Just wanted to share that with you.
I promise I'll let you know stuffs about the wedding lol,
Nymph
(Also - I swear I have a superpower to avoid gossip)
Friday, November 17, 2017
November 17th
Hello. My name is Nymph. And I am getting married tomorrow.
It seems so crazy now that it's here but it's been seven months, and we've been mentally preparing up until now. We have had seven months to date, get to know each other, save up money, and now we're here. And family is flying into town for our wedding. It's going to become oh-so-real in only a few hours and let me tell you this morning shift has to be the loooooongest daaaaaay of my liiiiiiiife.
It's kind of hard to have a job that you don't do much at and then have to move everything you own into an apartment and then not check out too many library books, pack for a trip and also not die of boredom. Sometimes this blog really helps me kill half an hour or two.
But I'm glad we've given everyone this much time to prepare. We could've gotten much sooner, but we waited, and I am not upset. I think what we did was good, ordained of God. And now - we get to finally go through with it.
It's crazy how everything in your life can change in a matter of 20 seconds. How as soon as that sealer just talks to us, signs some papers, and we say "Yes" we're married. That's it. That state of our social lives is changed forever. Whether we're married for 45 seconds or 45 years, we will have been married. Things will change. Attitudes will change, lifestyles will change, everything will change.
Everyone has been so loving! I've already mentioned that at least four separate parties are coming down from Logan, Montana and two from Idaho for this occasion. Those are only the ones I know about. Apparently there are many family members and it looks like we've already invited over the amount of people allowed in our sealing room, but so it goes. The temple will accommodate, and hopefully it will all be alright. My mom and I have been having serious peace about the whole endeavor, and while nervousness and excitement is building up inside of me (I can FEEL the butterflies guys) We have been waiting all this time - and I am ready to start this new part in our life.
I am also touched by my coworkers. I started out here not really enjoying my job. There are definitely still aspects that I don't love, like the not-much-to-do, but the coworkers really seem to care about me, as I had two cards this morning, one accompanied by a candy bar (aka my breakfast) and then an 87.00 giftcard from Human Resources, and a nice note from everyone in a card. It was really thoughtful and I honestly wasn't expecting it. I actually got a seizing in my chest from just how shocked and grateful I was. I'm really grateful for the many people in my life, and I'm thrilled to be able to truly see them all this week in one room, here because they love Atlantean and I and all present. It seems such a wonderful thing.
I will also mention that I went back to the temple again. I finally summoned up the courage to force myself to go back - and I'm glad I did. Though I still think I'll need more time in between before I can go back again. Life is not about being scared.
The weather has also been incredible. This beautiful storm and then it's supposed to pass this Saturday and we'll have a clear day. Probably vaguely chilly and maybe gray, but clearer nonetheless.
I can't believe this is happening. But I'm so excited it is. I'm so excited to set up tonight and see all my work come to fruition. To see the abandoned city. I really need to memorize my speech.
I love all of you, and I do believe this will probably be the point where I disappear off the face of the earth for just a little while. I'll update again when I'm a married Nymph.
Thanks for everything,
Nymph
It seems so crazy now that it's here but it's been seven months, and we've been mentally preparing up until now. We have had seven months to date, get to know each other, save up money, and now we're here. And family is flying into town for our wedding. It's going to become oh-so-real in only a few hours and let me tell you this morning shift has to be the loooooongest daaaaaay of my liiiiiiiife.
It's kind of hard to have a job that you don't do much at and then have to move everything you own into an apartment and then not check out too many library books, pack for a trip and also not die of boredom. Sometimes this blog really helps me kill half an hour or two.
But I'm glad we've given everyone this much time to prepare. We could've gotten much sooner, but we waited, and I am not upset. I think what we did was good, ordained of God. And now - we get to finally go through with it.
It's crazy how everything in your life can change in a matter of 20 seconds. How as soon as that sealer just talks to us, signs some papers, and we say "Yes" we're married. That's it. That state of our social lives is changed forever. Whether we're married for 45 seconds or 45 years, we will have been married. Things will change. Attitudes will change, lifestyles will change, everything will change.
Everyone has been so loving! I've already mentioned that at least four separate parties are coming down from Logan, Montana and two from Idaho for this occasion. Those are only the ones I know about. Apparently there are many family members and it looks like we've already invited over the amount of people allowed in our sealing room, but so it goes. The temple will accommodate, and hopefully it will all be alright. My mom and I have been having serious peace about the whole endeavor, and while nervousness and excitement is building up inside of me (I can FEEL the butterflies guys) We have been waiting all this time - and I am ready to start this new part in our life.
I am also touched by my coworkers. I started out here not really enjoying my job. There are definitely still aspects that I don't love, like the not-much-to-do, but the coworkers really seem to care about me, as I had two cards this morning, one accompanied by a candy bar (aka my breakfast) and then an 87.00 giftcard from Human Resources, and a nice note from everyone in a card. It was really thoughtful and I honestly wasn't expecting it. I actually got a seizing in my chest from just how shocked and grateful I was. I'm really grateful for the many people in my life, and I'm thrilled to be able to truly see them all this week in one room, here because they love Atlantean and I and all present. It seems such a wonderful thing.
I will also mention that I went back to the temple again. I finally summoned up the courage to force myself to go back - and I'm glad I did. Though I still think I'll need more time in between before I can go back again. Life is not about being scared.
The weather has also been incredible. This beautiful storm and then it's supposed to pass this Saturday and we'll have a clear day. Probably vaguely chilly and maybe gray, but clearer nonetheless.
I can't believe this is happening. But I'm so excited it is. I'm so excited to set up tonight and see all my work come to fruition. To see the abandoned city. I really need to memorize my speech.
I love all of you, and I do believe this will probably be the point where I disappear off the face of the earth for just a little while. I'll update again when I'm a married Nymph.
Thanks for everything,
Nymph
Monday, November 13, 2017
November 13th
Five days.
My feelings are ranging from AAAAAAAAH! To ah, finally.
You know what, that's kind of a lie. It's also just kind of what I've been telling people because I think it's what they expect to hear. I actually have been pretty calm so far. We've had seven months to mentally prepare. I don't honestly think I'm freaking out, I'm just ready for the occurrence of the event. Though, I must admit sometimes it's a little nice to be marrying the man I'm marrying because even last night, we walked each other through the wedding night, and just simple things we need and want to be done, because I'm getting a little nervous. A lot of communication. It's vital, and he's really good at it, and guys - I'm marrying the best one.
Also, I'm starting to get nervous about the life after marriage - because, honestly, I don't think I gave it enough thought.... It's all - get to the wedding, get to the wedding, and I guess (and I still find it difficult) the thoughts of life afterward are not coming as easily to me. I've lived a very cushy life, and recently, my life has been extra cushy because all I have to do is wake up, waste time, go to work and waste time until Atlantean gets home. My mom makes food, she's currently in charge of a lot of the wedding stuff, etcetera, etcetera. I don't do much in life right now and I feel like it's all switching on a dime, and I feel completely unprepared. It's not only a big life commitment, I also don't feel like I've mentally prepared enough for it in a lot of ways. I guess I'll have to just charge into it with whatever I had. Moving up to USU wasn't that hard, or not as much as I remember. I figure it will be hard in many ways, namely in that it won't have a deadline like a semester or anything, but I think it's definitely something worth being brave for, and having Atlantean by my side will make all the difference.
I'm also currently working on writing and memorizing a speech I want to present to Atlantean, but I can't seem to find the motivation, and I keep telling myself that it's not ready, or not good enough and I always want to change it because it literally does not seem to truly convey what I truly feel for him. And he said he expects to cry, so there's a part of me that really wants to make it like, AMAZING or something, but I only have what I wrote one day in the heat of the moment, and while it's not bad, like not at all (it's even really good) There's a part of me that just believes it to be so insufficient and even kind of dumb. I guess I'll have to work through those feelings because the worst thing you've ever written is better than the best thing I've never written.
Other than that, we recently had kind of a cool endeavor. Instead of going over to Pixie's house to have a game night like on other Sundays, we bailed for the third time at the last minute (which we're the worst for) and my family agreed to read my musical script and listen to the music. They loved it! Each person in my family got a role and had a lot of fun. My dad played the King and made him have a nasally pathetic voice and Atlantean was Father Huntsman with a deep voice. I think they really enjoyed it, since afterward, they laughed about each scene and had no bad critiques. My dad told me which characters read "the clearest" and Wolfman leaned into the accents of funny characters and my sister Mermaid playing the main character (instead of me - I switched us at the last minute) to see how she read - and she did it phenomenally. I was very pleased with the outcome, even if I felt just a little silly singing along to my own songs when I didn't know them perfectly. I'd have my family scroll down to the bottom, where the lyrics are and then play Spriggan's music and sing along lightly to where I knew the tune to be. Spriggan is apparently struggling academically currently, so this apparently is his savior, kind of a release as the end of the day. I did feel very inspired to start writing it now. Though whether that's because of my job or because of timing (maybe both) or God's instruction, I guess I'll have to find out in the next life. But I do enjoy the fact that I am on my way to having something I could actually produce on a stage.
This morning my mom and I also went around and dropped off pasta to all the women who agreed they would be okay with making it. Five pounds to each woman. Everyone keeps saying we won't even need all of it, but I think it's way better to be safe than sorry. Also, I need to keep busy. I can also kinda feel Satan working overtime. I love Atlantean and I want to start getting a little friskier, but getting so close to the wedding day is so easy to just let lines slip. We will have to be extra vigilant and obedient this week in order to wait and not throw away so much time and effort and really have what we want when we are finally legally and lawfully allowed to have it. It is hard, I will testify of that, especially since we're talking so much about it because it is becoming a real occurrence very soon.
Speaking of weddings, my friend who I saw at work recently had her wedding. I went with Atlantean and stayed the entire night, and my dear dear Atlantean came out onto the dance floor and danced with me, every dance move we knew. We were spectacular, fantastic, on fire, alive. I loved it. And I was so glad he was willing to just stand there and sway or to pick me up or to just rock to the music. He stayed with me. Never thought an ounce for himself. Gave himself over to the dance floor and gave it a shot. The wedding was nice. It was Anne of Green Gables themed, and had a lot of cute frills and quotes, and I started to feel a little nervous about what exactly our reception is going to look like with our odd theme and our large room. I get a little nervous. I also get nervous about how our dance floor will turn out. Everyone says it will be fine, but even Sarah and Ben's was kind of sparse. (admittedly, the music wasn't amazing dancy music) There was even an old guy swinging everyone around on the dance floor who seemed to be enjoying himself so much that when the time actually came for us to send off the bride and the groom, he complained loudly to the crowd that he wanted better songs and more music. I thought it was a very cute wedding - but very traditional.
I will tell y'all that Dryad and I finally found some lingerie. Once again, she is a wonderful friend to go shopping with, she was so patient and gave me honest opinions. It had constantly been No, No, No until we found this one and then we just knew it was a good one. The difficulty was being in the adult store that we went to. I thought I could withstand it, especially since I'm a woman and a lot of the pornographic images that converge in stores like that really started getting to me. Even that night, as I watched Waltzing videos to get anymore ideas about our waltz and what we could do, but I noticed I was focusing on the shape of the woman's bodies way too much. Pornography is a real problem and can not be simply "avoided" due to whoever you are or whatever you've been through. Do not look at pornography. But we did find a comfortable piece of lingerie in which I felt safe. So although I will not be revisiting that store anytime soon since I hated the vibe I received from it from the beginning, but I'm glad we found what we did. Because, ladies (and not that I've even had sex yet) but it is important to wear something that you are comfortable in, and feel safe. These tight sexy, red, black lace, whatevers, can cause fear, I think. Maybe I'm speaking only on my own behalf, but I feel much safer in the one Dryad bought me. (which apparently she saved up for, she's hard on cash, which - how sweet is that??)
Anyway. Need to stay good.
Nymph
My feelings are ranging from AAAAAAAAH! To ah, finally.
You know what, that's kind of a lie. It's also just kind of what I've been telling people because I think it's what they expect to hear. I actually have been pretty calm so far. We've had seven months to mentally prepare. I don't honestly think I'm freaking out, I'm just ready for the occurrence of the event. Though, I must admit sometimes it's a little nice to be marrying the man I'm marrying because even last night, we walked each other through the wedding night, and just simple things we need and want to be done, because I'm getting a little nervous. A lot of communication. It's vital, and he's really good at it, and guys - I'm marrying the best one.
Also, I'm starting to get nervous about the life after marriage - because, honestly, I don't think I gave it enough thought.... It's all - get to the wedding, get to the wedding, and I guess (and I still find it difficult) the thoughts of life afterward are not coming as easily to me. I've lived a very cushy life, and recently, my life has been extra cushy because all I have to do is wake up, waste time, go to work and waste time until Atlantean gets home. My mom makes food, she's currently in charge of a lot of the wedding stuff, etcetera, etcetera. I don't do much in life right now and I feel like it's all switching on a dime, and I feel completely unprepared. It's not only a big life commitment, I also don't feel like I've mentally prepared enough for it in a lot of ways. I guess I'll have to just charge into it with whatever I had. Moving up to USU wasn't that hard, or not as much as I remember. I figure it will be hard in many ways, namely in that it won't have a deadline like a semester or anything, but I think it's definitely something worth being brave for, and having Atlantean by my side will make all the difference.
I'm also currently working on writing and memorizing a speech I want to present to Atlantean, but I can't seem to find the motivation, and I keep telling myself that it's not ready, or not good enough and I always want to change it because it literally does not seem to truly convey what I truly feel for him. And he said he expects to cry, so there's a part of me that really wants to make it like, AMAZING or something, but I only have what I wrote one day in the heat of the moment, and while it's not bad, like not at all (it's even really good) There's a part of me that just believes it to be so insufficient and even kind of dumb. I guess I'll have to work through those feelings because the worst thing you've ever written is better than the best thing I've never written.
Other than that, we recently had kind of a cool endeavor. Instead of going over to Pixie's house to have a game night like on other Sundays, we bailed for the third time at the last minute (which we're the worst for) and my family agreed to read my musical script and listen to the music. They loved it! Each person in my family got a role and had a lot of fun. My dad played the King and made him have a nasally pathetic voice and Atlantean was Father Huntsman with a deep voice. I think they really enjoyed it, since afterward, they laughed about each scene and had no bad critiques. My dad told me which characters read "the clearest" and Wolfman leaned into the accents of funny characters and my sister Mermaid playing the main character (instead of me - I switched us at the last minute) to see how she read - and she did it phenomenally. I was very pleased with the outcome, even if I felt just a little silly singing along to my own songs when I didn't know them perfectly. I'd have my family scroll down to the bottom, where the lyrics are and then play Spriggan's music and sing along lightly to where I knew the tune to be. Spriggan is apparently struggling academically currently, so this apparently is his savior, kind of a release as the end of the day. I did feel very inspired to start writing it now. Though whether that's because of my job or because of timing (maybe both) or God's instruction, I guess I'll have to find out in the next life. But I do enjoy the fact that I am on my way to having something I could actually produce on a stage.
This morning my mom and I also went around and dropped off pasta to all the women who agreed they would be okay with making it. Five pounds to each woman. Everyone keeps saying we won't even need all of it, but I think it's way better to be safe than sorry. Also, I need to keep busy. I can also kinda feel Satan working overtime. I love Atlantean and I want to start getting a little friskier, but getting so close to the wedding day is so easy to just let lines slip. We will have to be extra vigilant and obedient this week in order to wait and not throw away so much time and effort and really have what we want when we are finally legally and lawfully allowed to have it. It is hard, I will testify of that, especially since we're talking so much about it because it is becoming a real occurrence very soon.
Speaking of weddings, my friend who I saw at work recently had her wedding. I went with Atlantean and stayed the entire night, and my dear dear Atlantean came out onto the dance floor and danced with me, every dance move we knew. We were spectacular, fantastic, on fire, alive. I loved it. And I was so glad he was willing to just stand there and sway or to pick me up or to just rock to the music. He stayed with me. Never thought an ounce for himself. Gave himself over to the dance floor and gave it a shot. The wedding was nice. It was Anne of Green Gables themed, and had a lot of cute frills and quotes, and I started to feel a little nervous about what exactly our reception is going to look like with our odd theme and our large room. I get a little nervous. I also get nervous about how our dance floor will turn out. Everyone says it will be fine, but even Sarah and Ben's was kind of sparse. (admittedly, the music wasn't amazing dancy music) There was even an old guy swinging everyone around on the dance floor who seemed to be enjoying himself so much that when the time actually came for us to send off the bride and the groom, he complained loudly to the crowd that he wanted better songs and more music. I thought it was a very cute wedding - but very traditional.
I will tell y'all that Dryad and I finally found some lingerie. Once again, she is a wonderful friend to go shopping with, she was so patient and gave me honest opinions. It had constantly been No, No, No until we found this one and then we just knew it was a good one. The difficulty was being in the adult store that we went to. I thought I could withstand it, especially since I'm a woman and a lot of the pornographic images that converge in stores like that really started getting to me. Even that night, as I watched Waltzing videos to get anymore ideas about our waltz and what we could do, but I noticed I was focusing on the shape of the woman's bodies way too much. Pornography is a real problem and can not be simply "avoided" due to whoever you are or whatever you've been through. Do not look at pornography. But we did find a comfortable piece of lingerie in which I felt safe. So although I will not be revisiting that store anytime soon since I hated the vibe I received from it from the beginning, but I'm glad we found what we did. Because, ladies (and not that I've even had sex yet) but it is important to wear something that you are comfortable in, and feel safe. These tight sexy, red, black lace, whatevers, can cause fear, I think. Maybe I'm speaking only on my own behalf, but I feel much safer in the one Dryad bought me. (which apparently she saved up for, she's hard on cash, which - how sweet is that??)
Anyway. Need to stay good.
Nymph
Friday, November 10, 2017
November 10th
We. Are officially. In the single digits people.
Eight. Days.
Can you believe it?? We might still be in denial (we can't tell at this point) but all in all, we're just really ready to get married.
I've been handing over a lot of the main preparations to my mom, because I don't want to have to deal with them, and maybe because it's the ebb before the tidal wave, I've been losing motivation to do a lot of things. Even Atlantean has been pushing for us to work on the dance, and I just have no desire to. I think it's the procrastinator in me finally coming through.
Other than that (cuz for some reason my mind's not really on the wedding all that much, though it totally should be) things have been good :) We mentally have to start wrapping our heads around cutting off certain things and beginning other ones soon. Like for instance, we recently made a trip back to the apartment and finally made the bed. Like, we'll be sleeping there soon. Atlantean's been working on his Green Lantern shrine next to his bed and of course he picked green as the first sheet we sleep on lol. I also heard very sad news about cousins of mine who are getting divorced and I started getting a little down about marriage - and that it seems so hard. Atlantean of course listened to my fears and comforted me, telling me we'd fall in love a million times if that's what it took. We'd nurture our relationship and learn that the trials God sends us are to bring us together, and that we literally probably couldn't completely them without each other, and that's what marriage is all about. He's amazing Atlantean. And everyone keeps telling me I'm seeing him through rose-colored glasses, but heck, get me the duct tape, these rose colored glasses will become my contact lenses for all I care, I think he's wonderful in SO many good ways. All the important ways especially, and all I want in life is to be eternally sealed to him so that I can have him for eternity.
I recently got back from a night out with a friend I hadn't talked to since high school. I don't really see her enough to give her a code name, but we had a very good time last night. I was actually initially kind of nervous to see her again after so long, and worried we wouldn't have anything to talk about, but that was not the case. She authentically wanted to hear Atlantean and I's story since she had had no idea of it even happening. I told her all about what I knew about our high school friends (including Dryad and her boyfriend whom I introduced to each other) and she was shocked to hear we'd all grown up so much. She, funnily enough, was exactly the same as she was back in high school, characterized by her general disdain for most things, her absolute enthusiasm for pop culture movies and books, love of reading and her petrification of dating boys. (She's basically never had a good experience) She told me she's finally ready to admit that she has anxiety regarding the last one, but other than that, she told me all about her new job, which is fixing leaks in woodwinds or musical horns. She has friends there and generally enjoys it. She is also going to school at SLCC. Then she and I went to the mall to go and check out the Harry Potter and the Wizarding World event going on there, which closed just about as soon as we got there, but it was the first day, so we're sure we'll both have a chance to go back down. Then she followed me around while I looked at shops and bought some new golden hoop earrings I think I'll wear for the wedding (and I miss my old hoops 😭) and then we parted ways.
One thing she said did stick with me though. I told her I had other friends with anxiety when she admitted she might have it and she said something to the effect of, "Well it makes sense you have so many friends with anxiety - you're so approachable." And that really meant a lot to me. I told her I wanted people to feel like they could trust me. Also, did I mention she agreed to take me out to Red Lobster and paid for the entire meal and told me I could get whatever I wanted (that was where we discussed all of this). GUYS. Red Lobster is my FAVORITE. And Red Lobster leftovers are the bomb diggity shiz.
It was actually that morning (before work) that my mom and I went on a crazy Winco/Costco/Orson Gygi/Smith's Pharmacy. And let me tell you, my mom and I make a crazy good team. We SLAYED. (More like she slays and I get to follow) First we went to Orson Gygi cuz it was farthest and picked up matching shakers for pasta toppings and then candy dish scoopers which actually look pretty cool. I also spent a little of my fun money to buy these hilarious silicone muffin cups that look like jeans (Muffin TOPS) that I'd been eyeing since our first trip there. Then we headed to WinCo to grab the rest of the pasta, sauce and candy, which was no small feat. We needed 10 cans of each sauce and 10 more pounds of each pasta. And then five pounds of each candy - the selection of which I'm very proud of. They are all multicolored little balls, so they all match :D We have jellybeans, sixlets and buttermints, so that's fruit, chocolate and mint for anyone who wants any of them! I think it's a perfect arrangement. I sometimes look at all this food and ask my mom if it will actually be enough, but she assures me it will. My mom also started buying us some stuff for our honeymoon basket, mainly candies and fruits, and it looks like it's gonna be pretty chock full ;)
Next we rushed over to Costco, and I called Smith's Pharmacy to get my pills set up and ready to go, since we were cutting it close on time. Costco we got all the rest, including some of my mom's shopping done. This included mainly paper goods. I budgeted about 500$ for food and so far we have spent about 280$ and I think the only thing that we haven't bought that is major is the chocolate milk, which we actually want to buy by the gallon, not in a mix. I think we're doing pretty darn well budget wise and might even walk away from this with even more than we expected :) Also, my mom kept spoiling me and buying us things, like soup cups and things. I kind of got sad thinking that this was one of the last times I'd be doing this with my mom like this. Things change I suppose.
Speaking of the wedding and my family, I do want to mention one thing that struck me and I think future me would like a record of. I went in to talk to my parents about somethings one night - and my dad just kind of said, "Nymph, we want you to know that we've actually really admired you and Atlantean have handled this engagement thus far." And I was just really shocked and kind of honored to receive his praise.
Other than that, Atlantean and I have been really getting excited. I also recently saw my friend - at all places - at my work. But she's my friend who is getting married this Saturday (so tomorrow) and a week before me. It was weirdly ironic. But we chatted and I got to meet one of her bridesmaids that was with her and apparently works with her. She's really excited to get married, but she said this has been the slowest week of her life. Not excited for next week then...
Tonight Dryad is taking me out lingerie shopping again (we just didn't find anything at the mall) and apparently the books I ordered from Amazon arrived at my house!
Also, I've been finding it pretty easy to pass the time at my new job. In fact, I'm almost worried that when and if I get a new job, I'll be spoiled by this one, in not wanting to do anything but what I want to do for five hours.
I have a cushy life, I'll tell you that.
But I'm sure God will change that eventually. Till then, I'm sharpening my blade by continuing to read and study - the books I'm currently working on and started today are Butchering Small Game and Birds and Homebuilding. Learned all about the kind of knife needed to puncture a rabbit's abdomen. I want to do great things with my life. But I have to be a great person to do them, so I'll keep working on me and keep having faith that God has great things in store.
Excited for what's to come,
Nymph
Eight. Days.
Can you believe it?? We might still be in denial (we can't tell at this point) but all in all, we're just really ready to get married.
I've been handing over a lot of the main preparations to my mom, because I don't want to have to deal with them, and maybe because it's the ebb before the tidal wave, I've been losing motivation to do a lot of things. Even Atlantean has been pushing for us to work on the dance, and I just have no desire to. I think it's the procrastinator in me finally coming through.
Other than that (cuz for some reason my mind's not really on the wedding all that much, though it totally should be) things have been good :) We mentally have to start wrapping our heads around cutting off certain things and beginning other ones soon. Like for instance, we recently made a trip back to the apartment and finally made the bed. Like, we'll be sleeping there soon. Atlantean's been working on his Green Lantern shrine next to his bed and of course he picked green as the first sheet we sleep on lol. I also heard very sad news about cousins of mine who are getting divorced and I started getting a little down about marriage - and that it seems so hard. Atlantean of course listened to my fears and comforted me, telling me we'd fall in love a million times if that's what it took. We'd nurture our relationship and learn that the trials God sends us are to bring us together, and that we literally probably couldn't completely them without each other, and that's what marriage is all about. He's amazing Atlantean. And everyone keeps telling me I'm seeing him through rose-colored glasses, but heck, get me the duct tape, these rose colored glasses will become my contact lenses for all I care, I think he's wonderful in SO many good ways. All the important ways especially, and all I want in life is to be eternally sealed to him so that I can have him for eternity.
I recently got back from a night out with a friend I hadn't talked to since high school. I don't really see her enough to give her a code name, but we had a very good time last night. I was actually initially kind of nervous to see her again after so long, and worried we wouldn't have anything to talk about, but that was not the case. She authentically wanted to hear Atlantean and I's story since she had had no idea of it even happening. I told her all about what I knew about our high school friends (including Dryad and her boyfriend whom I introduced to each other) and she was shocked to hear we'd all grown up so much. She, funnily enough, was exactly the same as she was back in high school, characterized by her general disdain for most things, her absolute enthusiasm for pop culture movies and books, love of reading and her petrification of dating boys. (She's basically never had a good experience) She told me she's finally ready to admit that she has anxiety regarding the last one, but other than that, she told me all about her new job, which is fixing leaks in woodwinds or musical horns. She has friends there and generally enjoys it. She is also going to school at SLCC. Then she and I went to the mall to go and check out the Harry Potter and the Wizarding World event going on there, which closed just about as soon as we got there, but it was the first day, so we're sure we'll both have a chance to go back down. Then she followed me around while I looked at shops and bought some new golden hoop earrings I think I'll wear for the wedding (and I miss my old hoops 😭) and then we parted ways.
One thing she said did stick with me though. I told her I had other friends with anxiety when she admitted she might have it and she said something to the effect of, "Well it makes sense you have so many friends with anxiety - you're so approachable." And that really meant a lot to me. I told her I wanted people to feel like they could trust me. Also, did I mention she agreed to take me out to Red Lobster and paid for the entire meal and told me I could get whatever I wanted (that was where we discussed all of this). GUYS. Red Lobster is my FAVORITE. And Red Lobster leftovers are the bomb diggity shiz.
It was actually that morning (before work) that my mom and I went on a crazy Winco/Costco/Orson Gygi/Smith's Pharmacy. And let me tell you, my mom and I make a crazy good team. We SLAYED. (More like she slays and I get to follow) First we went to Orson Gygi cuz it was farthest and picked up matching shakers for pasta toppings and then candy dish scoopers which actually look pretty cool. I also spent a little of my fun money to buy these hilarious silicone muffin cups that look like jeans (Muffin TOPS) that I'd been eyeing since our first trip there. Then we headed to WinCo to grab the rest of the pasta, sauce and candy, which was no small feat. We needed 10 cans of each sauce and 10 more pounds of each pasta. And then five pounds of each candy - the selection of which I'm very proud of. They are all multicolored little balls, so they all match :D We have jellybeans, sixlets and buttermints, so that's fruit, chocolate and mint for anyone who wants any of them! I think it's a perfect arrangement. I sometimes look at all this food and ask my mom if it will actually be enough, but she assures me it will. My mom also started buying us some stuff for our honeymoon basket, mainly candies and fruits, and it looks like it's gonna be pretty chock full ;)
Next we rushed over to Costco, and I called Smith's Pharmacy to get my pills set up and ready to go, since we were cutting it close on time. Costco we got all the rest, including some of my mom's shopping done. This included mainly paper goods. I budgeted about 500$ for food and so far we have spent about 280$ and I think the only thing that we haven't bought that is major is the chocolate milk, which we actually want to buy by the gallon, not in a mix. I think we're doing pretty darn well budget wise and might even walk away from this with even more than we expected :) Also, my mom kept spoiling me and buying us things, like soup cups and things. I kind of got sad thinking that this was one of the last times I'd be doing this with my mom like this. Things change I suppose.
Speaking of the wedding and my family, I do want to mention one thing that struck me and I think future me would like a record of. I went in to talk to my parents about somethings one night - and my dad just kind of said, "Nymph, we want you to know that we've actually really admired you and Atlantean have handled this engagement thus far." And I was just really shocked and kind of honored to receive his praise.
Other than that, Atlantean and I have been really getting excited. I also recently saw my friend - at all places - at my work. But she's my friend who is getting married this Saturday (so tomorrow) and a week before me. It was weirdly ironic. But we chatted and I got to meet one of her bridesmaids that was with her and apparently works with her. She's really excited to get married, but she said this has been the slowest week of her life. Not excited for next week then...
Tonight Dryad is taking me out lingerie shopping again (we just didn't find anything at the mall) and apparently the books I ordered from Amazon arrived at my house!
Also, I've been finding it pretty easy to pass the time at my new job. In fact, I'm almost worried that when and if I get a new job, I'll be spoiled by this one, in not wanting to do anything but what I want to do for five hours.
I have a cushy life, I'll tell you that.
But I'm sure God will change that eventually. Till then, I'm sharpening my blade by continuing to read and study - the books I'm currently working on and started today are Butchering Small Game and Birds and Homebuilding. Learned all about the kind of knife needed to puncture a rabbit's abdomen. I want to do great things with my life. But I have to be a great person to do them, so I'll keep working on me and keep having faith that God has great things in store.
Excited for what's to come,
Nymph
Monday, November 6, 2017
November 6th
Twelve days?? Both Atlantean and I are in denial. We're convinced that it's been so long that if it hasn't happened yet - it's never happening, right?
But life has been fun and busy. Everything is currently kind of coming down to the wire - not all yet, but we're getting there. We're finalizing furniture, cakes, decorations, food, guest lists, stuff like that. And I'm just ready to hibernate. I don't want to do anything anymore. I recently made the last paper flowers for the boutonnieres and I'm just ... meh. I want someone else to take over. I just wanna get married already. The nice thing is at this point, my mom is very much willing to take the reigns on many things, things I've already laid the groundwork for, but don't want to have to carry through because I'm just getting to that point. The only two things that I need to be working a lot harder on and no one else can really help is memorizing Atlantean's speech that I'm only giving to him - and working on the dance. Like, we're really going to be performing this dance to my wedding song! We need to have the ending worked out here!!
Other than that, we have been having a lot of fun. We recently got back from an awesome downtown date that I have been wanting to go on, I'm pretty sure since we started dating in March. The nice thing about dating Atlantean is that he's okay with a really scatter-brained schedule. Which is kind of what happened. So I couldn't tell you where exactly we went in what order, but here's a couple of the fun things we did. We went to City Creek shopping place, I asked my friend who lived there to come say hi, or even just wave out her window. She said it'd be a cute idea, and when I texted her we were there, she got busy, so we didn't get to see her unfortunately. But Atlantean got to see City Creek mall. Then we went over to Temple Square. Went to Eborn books, which is a HUGE bookstore that goes on forever, I swear. So Atlantean and I explored that and had fun getting caught on camera kissing ;) We walked back to where we parked to go drive up to the Capitol building (the first two hours of parking were free, so in order to get as much free time as possible, we took it out for a little bit and came back lol) Atlantean had never been to the Capitol building, and we got to wander around there. He was amazed by a display there that showed that everything came from minerals and kept saying, "That rock - turns into toothpaste" and now it's kind of an inside joke. I showed him the grand cathedralic halls and ceilings. There was actually a reception being set up at the time, and Atlantean and I both marveled at what it would cost to rent out the Capitol building. There was also a little boy, probably about six or seven who was obviously bored out of his mind, and started playing with us. And by playing, I mean, he'd make finger guns up at Atlantean and I way up on the balcony as we ducked our heads, ran around or pretended to get shot by him. I love Atlantean, and the fact that he's willing to play. We also got to march down the Capitol steps and he also kissed me beneath the Capitol steps, at least the ones inside. Outside, we saw people playing with big bubbles, ones made with a giant loop of string and a bucket full of soapy water, and we talked about how cool it would be to own a giant stone castle as our home like this one, but that there was something so much more appealing about warm small cozy homes. He talked about the concept of a "threshold" in one of his favorite book series that he's currently reading to me. We went to the Family History center which Atlantean used to have to visit all the time with his dad who is basically absolutely obsessed with genealogy, and he'd bribe young Atlantean with a treat, and Atlantean liked winding back up the microfilm. When we went in though, it was crazy different. It was no longer focused on finding genealogy and charting it, but more about telling your own story, and being very much more involved and entertaining for the general public and the 21st century. There were giant interactive screens and you checked out a tablet at the front desk and there were booths where you sat down and got filmed while you basically gave your story to be filed away with them. It was crazy modern.
Then we headed down to do something he wanted, which was go to Toys R Us or Black Cat comics. It was a little bit of a drive (really not all that much - and he knew where he was going) to Sugarhouse where they were, but they were both gone, so we went to Barnes & Noble instead. It was actually pretty fun. We at this point were kind of killing time before our improv show at ten pm. I read an entire comic called Everyone's An Aliebn When You're An Aliebn Too by Jomny Sum. It reminds me so much of my friend Pixie and I wanted to get it for her ever since I saw it for the first time. Atlantean had an inward battle of whether or not he wanted to spend his fun money on comic books. We actually need one new comic book to replace the table ornaments for our reception. (Half are my musical books and half are his comic books, and we've agreed we want one more to match a certain musical book I have, but to replace a mildly inappropriately covered one and also because we don't have any of this genre yet) But he ended up not getting them yet, though he's getting close to. We then went and found a more secluded place to park so we could get some cuddle and lip locking time in (eh heh) and then we drove down to the City Creek parking again and jumped on TRAX to get to Clark Planetarium to show him the gift shop I had grown up in lol. He was actually pretty impressed, especially when I told him you didn't have to pay to see the exhibits. We walked back and I showed him the pendulum and the meteors and the Rue Goldberg machine and we barely got to glance at the gift shop before we had to run back to TRAX to try to run to our show on time. We did get lucky, and the improv show was barely beginning when we got there. We got our free popcorn and drink and candy and sat down.
Dagnab, I love improv. And I think I've instilled a love of it in Atlantean as well. Atleast I hope I have. We saw one of our favorite improvvers from our local improv troupe, named Bryan. And all the rest of them were so good! Not to be offensive, but I haven't seen a ton of female improvvers that I liked, but Erin at Off Broadway was really good! They were all really good and I have a new favorite improvver named Kyle. But Austin and Parker were also just incredible. It was a great night of laughs. Atlantean's suggestions got taken for a couple scenes, so we got to see a Magyk the gathering battle which quickly devolved into Yu-Gi-Oh and then into Old Maid lol. I saw some games I'd never seen before, like one called "Back in My Day" where improvvers pretend they are old crotchety men and women talking about any item that they didn't have back in their day, with a one line zinger. Like, "Back in my day, we didn't have chicken. If a young man came to your counter asking for breasts and thighs - you ran away!" Another game (which I don't know if I caught the name of) was one where all the improvvers are linked together by their arms and they talk as one as they act out a famous person from history. In our case, they pretended to be Genghis Khan, and the MC interviewed them. It was pretty funny to watch them work together as they talked slowly and would take turns taking the lead and everyone would follow as they spoke. Genghis Khan was trying to be a comedian and he was going to kill his wife Wanda because she kept telling people he wasn't allowed to kill people. His catch phrase was "Mongoria!" and one of Bryan's favorite characters - of a Chinese samurai who is into tweeting and hashtags. It really is quite amusing.
After getting scolded by Kyle for yelling "fruitcake" too loud as a suggestion. (Kyle: Someone could get offended!), Kyle then nearly made me cramp when he played a game with a member of the audience. The member of the audience was supposed to supply all the noises while Kyle completed a scene from a suggestion. We suggested cleaning the bathroom. But the funniest part about the whole ordeal was the narration Kyle supplied the entire time. Lines like, "Better hurry!" After the audience member made peeing noises, or "this sponge is made of sandpaper" or "that was a little bit more of a feminine glove" and it was just hilarious. I nearly peed my pants myself. Atlantean came home with me and we took a nap and then he headed home.
The next day on Sunday, we failed in our goal of dancing and stick shifting again -_-
But at church, both Atlantean and I felt the pressure since it was technically our last fast sunday in this ward, that we should probably take the opportunity to bear our testimonies. So we both went up on the stand. He went first. I went next and bawled while I just said a quick few simple lines of how thankful I was to have been part of a ward that was the village that raised me. Next block - I taught my last lesson on prayer and it went very well :) Then I went to relief society and passed out the last of my furniture cards. Atlantean and I then went home and took a nap together which my mom woke us up early from since she was confused on daylights savings, but we headed over to the bishops office to have our interview at 3:00.
The bishop interviewed us separately and then together and gave us some advice. He told us that as a couple we had to become one. This meant that it was never "his problem" or "her problem" that it was always "our problem." So Atlantean and I have been teasing each other and saying, "Is our stomach full yet?" or "How is our Green Lantern comic book collection doing?" But it's actually brought us closer together. He told us other things, like that we shouldn't belittle each other, especially behind each other's back. Even just mentioning weaknesses to our friends was inappropriate. He also emphasized to Atlantean how important and apparently... superior... women are. I cant remember anything else specific, but it was all very good advice. Then we went home to head basically straight to Atlantean's house and attend a birthday party for Troll and two of his nieces and nephews. We got a Mario toy for the boy, a plush unicorn for the girl and a Star Trek notebook for Troll, who seemed to like it very much. We thought we did pretty well, all things considering. Atlantean has a certain soft spot in his heart for his second youngest niece, and he was very happy to see her so lovingly hug the unicorn he picked out for her.
After that, we headed over to Pixie's house to play some games and ended up walking away with more free stuff since they're currently still moving and they keep finding things they don't need. This included a king size bed frame! Which we have been looking for! What are the chances, right?? We have a fully furnished apartment and the ONLY thing we bought for it was bed sheets, and we ended up not even having to do that! It's incredible. We got away from Pixie's house with another set of sheets, a bread box, a bunch of musical books I don't own and would never fund but definitely wanted, a golden frame, an Agatha Christie book, a flour sifter, a hand chopper, and a whole bunch of little jars with spice names on them. All for free! I was amazed!
Let's see, what else.. other than that, I'm reading this book my mom recommended called Fascinating Womanhood. Its from the 50s and has some pretty outdated ideals, but I see what she's getting at with most of it. I'm learning from a lot of these marriage books that you have to take everything with a grain of salt, since some of them deliberately contradict each other. I'm a lot more used to books that I just take for truth since I've only ever read stories up til now, so it's kind of a whole new world. It is a good book though. Has kept me entertained for multiple hours here at work so far.
Speaking of books, I recently blew my budgeted fun money on two books - A Pioneer Sampler and Rhett and Link's Book of Mythicality on Amazon and they'll be arriving shortly. On Friday, actually, and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't pretty excited. The Pioneer Sampler is a dose of life with the pioneers, but when I read it, I really thought pioneers were so cool and I've really taken a fancy to them, so I figured I just had to buy it to be able to read it over and over again. I love it. As for Rhett and Link's book, I just really wanna see what's in there. They have been growing on me lately and I really want to see if I can find things to do or inspire myself with their randomness and positivity. They entertain because they enjoy making us happy. :)
Other than that, I have a bowl full of tootsie rolls at my work that's been working real well in keeping people coming to my desk to get some, it's kind of funny how well it works. I'm almost out of the bag. The bag was actually an off-handed gift from one of our custodians who gave it to me because he said his "mom would go ballistic if she saw him with two things of candy" and he already had a box of footlongs. When I told him how well it was doing up at the front desk, he seemed pretty pleased :)
Tonight my family and I are going to go see A Bundle of Trouble for our last Hale Center Theatre play at the West Valley one. It was written by a Hale (Ruth Hale I believe) And I'm not that excited about home grown theatre on a professional stage, but hey, maybe it'll exceed my expectations. I am a playwright after all.
Speaking of which! I have been actually working with Imp's brother... Spriggan... (made that up just now) and he has been writing music for my play that I wrote! And my family has agreed to read it outloud with me either on a sunday or a Monday family home evening. I know it probably shouldn't be a priority with the wedding coming up and all, but I can't help but feel it's my creative outlet and my happy place. And he's writing GOOD music. Gall I wish I had that talent. I'm excited to see what comes out of it as his semester gets closer to it's end and my wedding gets closer to just being finished!
Also, one of the perks of not ever wearing makeup is that when the drinking fountain splashes your face, you don't even think twice because you're not freaked out that anything got wrecked or you have to do any sort of a touch up or that you look like a two toned monster for the rest of the day.
Just a thought.
~Nymph
But life has been fun and busy. Everything is currently kind of coming down to the wire - not all yet, but we're getting there. We're finalizing furniture, cakes, decorations, food, guest lists, stuff like that. And I'm just ready to hibernate. I don't want to do anything anymore. I recently made the last paper flowers for the boutonnieres and I'm just ... meh. I want someone else to take over. I just wanna get married already. The nice thing is at this point, my mom is very much willing to take the reigns on many things, things I've already laid the groundwork for, but don't want to have to carry through because I'm just getting to that point. The only two things that I need to be working a lot harder on and no one else can really help is memorizing Atlantean's speech that I'm only giving to him - and working on the dance. Like, we're really going to be performing this dance to my wedding song! We need to have the ending worked out here!!
Other than that, we have been having a lot of fun. We recently got back from an awesome downtown date that I have been wanting to go on, I'm pretty sure since we started dating in March. The nice thing about dating Atlantean is that he's okay with a really scatter-brained schedule. Which is kind of what happened. So I couldn't tell you where exactly we went in what order, but here's a couple of the fun things we did. We went to City Creek shopping place, I asked my friend who lived there to come say hi, or even just wave out her window. She said it'd be a cute idea, and when I texted her we were there, she got busy, so we didn't get to see her unfortunately. But Atlantean got to see City Creek mall. Then we went over to Temple Square. Went to Eborn books, which is a HUGE bookstore that goes on forever, I swear. So Atlantean and I explored that and had fun getting caught on camera kissing ;) We walked back to where we parked to go drive up to the Capitol building (the first two hours of parking were free, so in order to get as much free time as possible, we took it out for a little bit and came back lol) Atlantean had never been to the Capitol building, and we got to wander around there. He was amazed by a display there that showed that everything came from minerals and kept saying, "That rock - turns into toothpaste" and now it's kind of an inside joke. I showed him the grand cathedralic halls and ceilings. There was actually a reception being set up at the time, and Atlantean and I both marveled at what it would cost to rent out the Capitol building. There was also a little boy, probably about six or seven who was obviously bored out of his mind, and started playing with us. And by playing, I mean, he'd make finger guns up at Atlantean and I way up on the balcony as we ducked our heads, ran around or pretended to get shot by him. I love Atlantean, and the fact that he's willing to play. We also got to march down the Capitol steps and he also kissed me beneath the Capitol steps, at least the ones inside. Outside, we saw people playing with big bubbles, ones made with a giant loop of string and a bucket full of soapy water, and we talked about how cool it would be to own a giant stone castle as our home like this one, but that there was something so much more appealing about warm small cozy homes. He talked about the concept of a "threshold" in one of his favorite book series that he's currently reading to me. We went to the Family History center which Atlantean used to have to visit all the time with his dad who is basically absolutely obsessed with genealogy, and he'd bribe young Atlantean with a treat, and Atlantean liked winding back up the microfilm. When we went in though, it was crazy different. It was no longer focused on finding genealogy and charting it, but more about telling your own story, and being very much more involved and entertaining for the general public and the 21st century. There were giant interactive screens and you checked out a tablet at the front desk and there were booths where you sat down and got filmed while you basically gave your story to be filed away with them. It was crazy modern.
Then we headed down to do something he wanted, which was go to Toys R Us or Black Cat comics. It was a little bit of a drive (really not all that much - and he knew where he was going) to Sugarhouse where they were, but they were both gone, so we went to Barnes & Noble instead. It was actually pretty fun. We at this point were kind of killing time before our improv show at ten pm. I read an entire comic called Everyone's An Aliebn When You're An Aliebn Too by Jomny Sum. It reminds me so much of my friend Pixie and I wanted to get it for her ever since I saw it for the first time. Atlantean had an inward battle of whether or not he wanted to spend his fun money on comic books. We actually need one new comic book to replace the table ornaments for our reception. (Half are my musical books and half are his comic books, and we've agreed we want one more to match a certain musical book I have, but to replace a mildly inappropriately covered one and also because we don't have any of this genre yet) But he ended up not getting them yet, though he's getting close to. We then went and found a more secluded place to park so we could get some cuddle and lip locking time in (eh heh) and then we drove down to the City Creek parking again and jumped on TRAX to get to Clark Planetarium to show him the gift shop I had grown up in lol. He was actually pretty impressed, especially when I told him you didn't have to pay to see the exhibits. We walked back and I showed him the pendulum and the meteors and the Rue Goldberg machine and we barely got to glance at the gift shop before we had to run back to TRAX to try to run to our show on time. We did get lucky, and the improv show was barely beginning when we got there. We got our free popcorn and drink and candy and sat down.
Dagnab, I love improv. And I think I've instilled a love of it in Atlantean as well. Atleast I hope I have. We saw one of our favorite improvvers from our local improv troupe, named Bryan. And all the rest of them were so good! Not to be offensive, but I haven't seen a ton of female improvvers that I liked, but Erin at Off Broadway was really good! They were all really good and I have a new favorite improvver named Kyle. But Austin and Parker were also just incredible. It was a great night of laughs. Atlantean's suggestions got taken for a couple scenes, so we got to see a Magyk the gathering battle which quickly devolved into Yu-Gi-Oh and then into Old Maid lol. I saw some games I'd never seen before, like one called "Back in My Day" where improvvers pretend they are old crotchety men and women talking about any item that they didn't have back in their day, with a one line zinger. Like, "Back in my day, we didn't have chicken. If a young man came to your counter asking for breasts and thighs - you ran away!" Another game (which I don't know if I caught the name of) was one where all the improvvers are linked together by their arms and they talk as one as they act out a famous person from history. In our case, they pretended to be Genghis Khan, and the MC interviewed them. It was pretty funny to watch them work together as they talked slowly and would take turns taking the lead and everyone would follow as they spoke. Genghis Khan was trying to be a comedian and he was going to kill his wife Wanda because she kept telling people he wasn't allowed to kill people. His catch phrase was "Mongoria!" and one of Bryan's favorite characters - of a Chinese samurai who is into tweeting and hashtags. It really is quite amusing.
After getting scolded by Kyle for yelling "fruitcake" too loud as a suggestion. (Kyle: Someone could get offended!), Kyle then nearly made me cramp when he played a game with a member of the audience. The member of the audience was supposed to supply all the noises while Kyle completed a scene from a suggestion. We suggested cleaning the bathroom. But the funniest part about the whole ordeal was the narration Kyle supplied the entire time. Lines like, "Better hurry!" After the audience member made peeing noises, or "this sponge is made of sandpaper" or "that was a little bit more of a feminine glove" and it was just hilarious. I nearly peed my pants myself. Atlantean came home with me and we took a nap and then he headed home.
The next day on Sunday, we failed in our goal of dancing and stick shifting again -_-
But at church, both Atlantean and I felt the pressure since it was technically our last fast sunday in this ward, that we should probably take the opportunity to bear our testimonies. So we both went up on the stand. He went first. I went next and bawled while I just said a quick few simple lines of how thankful I was to have been part of a ward that was the village that raised me. Next block - I taught my last lesson on prayer and it went very well :) Then I went to relief society and passed out the last of my furniture cards. Atlantean and I then went home and took a nap together which my mom woke us up early from since she was confused on daylights savings, but we headed over to the bishops office to have our interview at 3:00.
The bishop interviewed us separately and then together and gave us some advice. He told us that as a couple we had to become one. This meant that it was never "his problem" or "her problem" that it was always "our problem." So Atlantean and I have been teasing each other and saying, "Is our stomach full yet?" or "How is our Green Lantern comic book collection doing?" But it's actually brought us closer together. He told us other things, like that we shouldn't belittle each other, especially behind each other's back. Even just mentioning weaknesses to our friends was inappropriate. He also emphasized to Atlantean how important and apparently... superior... women are. I cant remember anything else specific, but it was all very good advice. Then we went home to head basically straight to Atlantean's house and attend a birthday party for Troll and two of his nieces and nephews. We got a Mario toy for the boy, a plush unicorn for the girl and a Star Trek notebook for Troll, who seemed to like it very much. We thought we did pretty well, all things considering. Atlantean has a certain soft spot in his heart for his second youngest niece, and he was very happy to see her so lovingly hug the unicorn he picked out for her.
After that, we headed over to Pixie's house to play some games and ended up walking away with more free stuff since they're currently still moving and they keep finding things they don't need. This included a king size bed frame! Which we have been looking for! What are the chances, right?? We have a fully furnished apartment and the ONLY thing we bought for it was bed sheets, and we ended up not even having to do that! It's incredible. We got away from Pixie's house with another set of sheets, a bread box, a bunch of musical books I don't own and would never fund but definitely wanted, a golden frame, an Agatha Christie book, a flour sifter, a hand chopper, and a whole bunch of little jars with spice names on them. All for free! I was amazed!
Let's see, what else.. other than that, I'm reading this book my mom recommended called Fascinating Womanhood. Its from the 50s and has some pretty outdated ideals, but I see what she's getting at with most of it. I'm learning from a lot of these marriage books that you have to take everything with a grain of salt, since some of them deliberately contradict each other. I'm a lot more used to books that I just take for truth since I've only ever read stories up til now, so it's kind of a whole new world. It is a good book though. Has kept me entertained for multiple hours here at work so far.
Speaking of books, I recently blew my budgeted fun money on two books - A Pioneer Sampler and Rhett and Link's Book of Mythicality on Amazon and they'll be arriving shortly. On Friday, actually, and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't pretty excited. The Pioneer Sampler is a dose of life with the pioneers, but when I read it, I really thought pioneers were so cool and I've really taken a fancy to them, so I figured I just had to buy it to be able to read it over and over again. I love it. As for Rhett and Link's book, I just really wanna see what's in there. They have been growing on me lately and I really want to see if I can find things to do or inspire myself with their randomness and positivity. They entertain because they enjoy making us happy. :)
Other than that, I have a bowl full of tootsie rolls at my work that's been working real well in keeping people coming to my desk to get some, it's kind of funny how well it works. I'm almost out of the bag. The bag was actually an off-handed gift from one of our custodians who gave it to me because he said his "mom would go ballistic if she saw him with two things of candy" and he already had a box of footlongs. When I told him how well it was doing up at the front desk, he seemed pretty pleased :)
Tonight my family and I are going to go see A Bundle of Trouble for our last Hale Center Theatre play at the West Valley one. It was written by a Hale (Ruth Hale I believe) And I'm not that excited about home grown theatre on a professional stage, but hey, maybe it'll exceed my expectations. I am a playwright after all.
Speaking of which! I have been actually working with Imp's brother... Spriggan... (made that up just now) and he has been writing music for my play that I wrote! And my family has agreed to read it outloud with me either on a sunday or a Monday family home evening. I know it probably shouldn't be a priority with the wedding coming up and all, but I can't help but feel it's my creative outlet and my happy place. And he's writing GOOD music. Gall I wish I had that talent. I'm excited to see what comes out of it as his semester gets closer to it's end and my wedding gets closer to just being finished!
Also, one of the perks of not ever wearing makeup is that when the drinking fountain splashes your face, you don't even think twice because you're not freaked out that anything got wrecked or you have to do any sort of a touch up or that you look like a two toned monster for the rest of the day.
Just a thought.
~Nymph
Wednesday, November 1, 2017
November 1st
It's the first day of November! And Atlantean and I only have seventeen days to go! Where has the time gone! We got to hang out at his house and play a scary board game (which we only kind of got halfway through cuz it was supes complicated) but hanging with the in laws is important, as quiet as they may be. Also, his grandma thought I was something entirely different than a Frankenstein as she kept reaching for my skirt to see my white legs and saying, "Don't worry honey, I'll let you sit where the white people sit" and "When you spoke at work - did you speak Southern?"
I'll leave the conclusion up to you, but all I'll say is that I had very dark green makeup all over my face and my lips were protrudingly not covered.
It was October before we had all of our furniture in, and we hadn't even paid rent - but it's all in there now! Except the essentials, of course. And weirdly enough, I've lost more things lately than I have in a while. :/ Can't find my shoes or my pencil case, which are both pretty important things. I hope they turn up eventually. I'm sure they will. I only visit a total of five places within any given week anyway. Atlantean is being such a good sport about the whole not living there or hanging out there, while everyone else tells me it's a dumb idea to pay for a month worth of rent and not have one of us live there. It probably is. We're going to do it anyway.
Now all we have to do is wait and re-establish everything we already have. I probably should be more nervous, but I'm not currently, though I know the ONLY way I'm going to get through this when the nerves hit me is by asking God for continual peace. He is the only way I'm going to get through this.
My ward bridal shower was a huge success! We had SO much food on October 24th! A lot of the women were very considerate and they gave us bags with recipes and the exact ingredients to complete them! I really do think food and making food will be a very large challenge for me, as weird as it sounds. Because up at USU all I did a lot was eat out of a can and was very satisfied, but Atlantean is very much a fan of good food and in order to remember him first and forget myself, I need to learn to make time to sacrifice to make him good food at least every once in a while. Or at least try. I don't know why this will be such a big sacrifice for me, because for a lot of women, it tends to come rather naturally, but I can sense it will be. I think it also is a large part of my thought process of turning to the mundane portion of life. Making dinner finalizes it, as goofy as that sounds, I'm finally in a mundane rhythm that chains me down. I know it sounds stupid, but I think it really is something I struggle with.
Other than that, what else.... Oh! Wolfman made us twenty four easels! And we tried them out on comic and musical books this morning! He is so awesome! and said he needed a new project. On top of that - he made us a coatrack and a boot rack just because he had the time and materials! Atlantean and I have repeatedly said that there will never be a day that we can pay him back because he just keeps doing all these nice things for us. His second language is service, and we both adore him. Atlantean even gets worried that he won't measure up compared to him sometimes. I told him I'm not marrying Wolfman, I'm marrying him, but I still think he worries.
We finally had D&D again! With just Aos Sidhe (Atlantean's brother) and I again. No Jinn, no Troll and no Wolfman, which might be selfish of me, but I really liked. I also was kind of ashamed last night when I started getting really frustrated with a game that sort of hated me called Eldritch Horror that Aos Sidhe specifically bought for us on Halloween night to play but we ended up not even finishing. I should have been more patient and not been so angry. I kept being mad about all the conditions my poor character was having to deal with. I'm realizing I probably have that habit from the friends I hang out with, since talking so exasperatedly typically gets you laughs and attention. This wasn't the case with Atlantean and Aos Sidhe. They're both very gentle and calm and think about what they say before they say it. I hope I didn't hurt Atlantean's feelings and he realized I appreciated the effort. But I should probably show him with my actions and less of just me wishing goodwill upon him.
We recently played SmashUp and now I've been thinking about finding good combinations to play to have an upper hand. We had a night out with Atlantean's mission companion, and he seems tired and kind of sad, but he's so witty! And actually pretty fun to be around :) Also Jinn offered us a Vanellope Von Schweet and Wreck-It Ralph costume, but we ended up not taking the opportunity because timing wise it juts didn't work out. Unfortunately she even went out of her way to make us two sugar cookies that said "You're My Hero" like in the show, but I don't even think Atlantean and I even kept them. I feel kind of bad about that.... I have a dinner date tomorrow with an old friend I haven't caught up with in a long time, thought I don't actually currently want to go just because she's taking me to Red Lobster (at my request) and it's such good food that I feel bad since I'm currently on my period (for the first time in eight months thank you very much) and I haven't been exercising, or felt like exercising so to go to a nice restaurant and eat really nice food ... I just .. bleh. But I wanna catch up with her and show her I care. I wonder if she'd be mad if I just showed up, took the food home and then left.... Probably -_- My mom and I on Thursday morning are going to go pick up WinCo food (our first fifteen pounds of pasta) and then head to DownEast to buy me some kind of white undershirt.
I am planning to force myself to go back to the temple this Friday, and Atlantean and I have a downtown date planned for this Saturday which I've been wanting to go on since we started dating in March. #waytoprocrastinate
Probably a lot more, but I'm babbling as it is,
Nymph
I'll leave the conclusion up to you, but all I'll say is that I had very dark green makeup all over my face and my lips were protrudingly not covered.
It was October before we had all of our furniture in, and we hadn't even paid rent - but it's all in there now! Except the essentials, of course. And weirdly enough, I've lost more things lately than I have in a while. :/ Can't find my shoes or my pencil case, which are both pretty important things. I hope they turn up eventually. I'm sure they will. I only visit a total of five places within any given week anyway. Atlantean is being such a good sport about the whole not living there or hanging out there, while everyone else tells me it's a dumb idea to pay for a month worth of rent and not have one of us live there. It probably is. We're going to do it anyway.
Now all we have to do is wait and re-establish everything we already have. I probably should be more nervous, but I'm not currently, though I know the ONLY way I'm going to get through this when the nerves hit me is by asking God for continual peace. He is the only way I'm going to get through this.
My ward bridal shower was a huge success! We had SO much food on October 24th! A lot of the women were very considerate and they gave us bags with recipes and the exact ingredients to complete them! I really do think food and making food will be a very large challenge for me, as weird as it sounds. Because up at USU all I did a lot was eat out of a can and was very satisfied, but Atlantean is very much a fan of good food and in order to remember him first and forget myself, I need to learn to make time to sacrifice to make him good food at least every once in a while. Or at least try. I don't know why this will be such a big sacrifice for me, because for a lot of women, it tends to come rather naturally, but I can sense it will be. I think it also is a large part of my thought process of turning to the mundane portion of life. Making dinner finalizes it, as goofy as that sounds, I'm finally in a mundane rhythm that chains me down. I know it sounds stupid, but I think it really is something I struggle with.
Other than that, what else.... Oh! Wolfman made us twenty four easels! And we tried them out on comic and musical books this morning! He is so awesome! and said he needed a new project. On top of that - he made us a coatrack and a boot rack just because he had the time and materials! Atlantean and I have repeatedly said that there will never be a day that we can pay him back because he just keeps doing all these nice things for us. His second language is service, and we both adore him. Atlantean even gets worried that he won't measure up compared to him sometimes. I told him I'm not marrying Wolfman, I'm marrying him, but I still think he worries.
We finally had D&D again! With just Aos Sidhe (Atlantean's brother) and I again. No Jinn, no Troll and no Wolfman, which might be selfish of me, but I really liked. I also was kind of ashamed last night when I started getting really frustrated with a game that sort of hated me called Eldritch Horror that Aos Sidhe specifically bought for us on Halloween night to play but we ended up not even finishing. I should have been more patient and not been so angry. I kept being mad about all the conditions my poor character was having to deal with. I'm realizing I probably have that habit from the friends I hang out with, since talking so exasperatedly typically gets you laughs and attention. This wasn't the case with Atlantean and Aos Sidhe. They're both very gentle and calm and think about what they say before they say it. I hope I didn't hurt Atlantean's feelings and he realized I appreciated the effort. But I should probably show him with my actions and less of just me wishing goodwill upon him.
We recently played SmashUp and now I've been thinking about finding good combinations to play to have an upper hand. We had a night out with Atlantean's mission companion, and he seems tired and kind of sad, but he's so witty! And actually pretty fun to be around :) Also Jinn offered us a Vanellope Von Schweet and Wreck-It Ralph costume, but we ended up not taking the opportunity because timing wise it juts didn't work out. Unfortunately she even went out of her way to make us two sugar cookies that said "You're My Hero" like in the show, but I don't even think Atlantean and I even kept them. I feel kind of bad about that.... I have a dinner date tomorrow with an old friend I haven't caught up with in a long time, thought I don't actually currently want to go just because she's taking me to Red Lobster (at my request) and it's such good food that I feel bad since I'm currently on my period (for the first time in eight months thank you very much) and I haven't been exercising, or felt like exercising so to go to a nice restaurant and eat really nice food ... I just .. bleh. But I wanna catch up with her and show her I care. I wonder if she'd be mad if I just showed up, took the food home and then left.... Probably -_- My mom and I on Thursday morning are going to go pick up WinCo food (our first fifteen pounds of pasta) and then head to DownEast to buy me some kind of white undershirt.
I am planning to force myself to go back to the temple this Friday, and Atlantean and I have a downtown date planned for this Saturday which I've been wanting to go on since we started dating in March. #waytoprocrastinate
Probably a lot more, but I'm babbling as it is,
Nymph
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