Happy Halloween from Nymph and Atlantean! And while we had many different costume ideas, I just last minute decided I was gonna be a Frakenstein for the kids at work :) I'm more of a fashionable Franken-teen (or atleast that was my attempt). We had a lot of cool costumes for work, including, but not limited to, Dr. Strange, Wednesday from Addams Family, Sally from Nightmare Before Christmas and then even a full blown Superman costume in which he came wheeling in on a hover board, arm extended while the Superman theme played from his wireless speakers. It was epic.
Other wise- we actually have a lot of news regarding how the wedding planning is going! I'm currently finally handing out furniture cards to the ladies who have volunteered things, and telling them the date and the time and then crossing my fingers as to whether they'll be able to make it or not. But we're getting moving on that! Also - we recently got a turntable that works (a record player) and the owner has agreed, that if we so choose, that we could play it at the reception. I worry it will not fill the entire space with the sound, but I definitely want to try and it and am happy for the opportunity! We also have now set up an appointment with the bishop to get our Living Ordinance Recommend. The secretary suggested we have it this Sunday, but I thought I needed a little more time, so I scheduled it for next Sunday.
And on that subject - (speaking of making it official) I have big news! Atlantean and I went yesterday morning to get our marriage license! He took school off in the morning because it's a government organization and their hours are 8-5, and I finally got to spend a weekday morning with him, and let me tell you, he got adorably hyper! It was fun, easy and simple to do, and the lady was super nice. Usually not the experience you except when working with paperwork and the government, but I think we were both pleasantly surprised. She even helped us fill out the online application right there. We even saw a couple who needed a witness to their marriage right there in the office.
That's all that's really on my mind,
Nymph
Tuesday, October 31, 2017
Monday, October 23, 2017
October 23rd
What is there not to tell?? Atlantean and I got a four day weekend and we enjoyed every minute of it! So let me briefly skim over our schedule.
("Briefly" Lol yeah right)
Tuesday was the day Dryad took me lingerie shopping - and let me tell you - Dryad is one of my favorite people to shop with because she has so much patience! She'll wait outside fitting rooms, she'll tell you the truth about what you try on and never try to get you to go faster or moan about how slow you're going. She even offered, if we didn't find anything this time, that we could try again another day. She was actually really thrilled that I let her do this with me, and I felt the same way toward her. It was weird coming out of a dressing room wearing so little, but I did want a nice pair of lingerie, and I was so happy when she wasn't just willing to settle with something "alright" and never judged me for the way my body looked. She even suggested a couple of styles because of my body shape. She said she wants to have me in something that when I wear it, I think, "Dang! I'D do me." I really appreciate her and can't wait to go again!
Wednesday night was the night that Fairy Queen, Atlantean and I went to go pick up my prescribed birth control. We were freaked out when the front counter told us it was going to be 63$ a month for the name brand, and I freaked out because I not only was scared of all the things I had heard birth control does to a woman, and now on top of that - I had to pay a large amount of money that I was pretty sure I didn't have every month. Atlantean took me over to the empty deli at Smiths to rant and cry, and we left Fairy Queen in the pharmacy.
God works in miraculous ways, and this was one of those times. My mom was not only able to acquire free birth control, but also birth control that was totally prescribed and was the name brand. I didn't deserve this kind of treatment since all I had done is whine about it not being the way I had wanted. It's just another testament I suppose that God really desires Atlantean and I to be married and that it should be a wonderful time, not a time of elevated stress. I recently also changed my time of birth control and while I'm nervous about the effects and I do not - nay - I CANNOT get pregnant anytime soon, I'm already failing at remembering about taking it. I need to be better.
Wednesday was also the day that Jinn took me over to her house and helped me make peanut butter fingers for Atlantean's bachelor party. She pretty much just handed me the recipe and supervised me, so I essentially made them all by myself. I also discovered I have an irrational fear of handmixers. They're just too strong! They scare me. I also got a glimpse into Troll and Jinn's life together as Troll came down to read us some of his writing and take care of their baby (whom I think I named Unicorn previously?). Jinn has also had to currently come and use our oven down in our apartment (which technically isn't actually ours, but I still like to consider it ours) because hers upstairs isn't working. I think they recently have actually had a repairman come over and fix it.
Thursday I went and got my hair cut with Pixie, and hated what the woman did. Thankfully they were having a sale at Great Clips and I didn't have to pay too much for it.... She didn't make my bangs straight and she was kind of grumpy the entire time. I know I can work with what she gave me, but I wasn't terribly pleased. I got to look through Pixie's amazing sketchbook afterward and then she willing went with me to Zurchers and Hobby Lobby afterward to pick up crepe paper and silver and blue paper for the leaving of the reception and the flowers of the boutonnieres of the adults. I'm so glad Jinn suggested paper flowers, because now I know how to make them. I also picked up some cute frankenstein socks and some day of the dead candles that contribute to my 30$ fun money (my first thing this month!)
Later that day, Atlantean and I went to his bank to deal with some withdrawal issues and then to IKEA to pick him out some drawers that will fit in my IKEA shelf so that we can have a sort of dresser together, and we had fun fooling around in IKEA again. We also went to Olive Garden just before because he was excited to, and spent a little more than we expected. I felt really bad about it, especially because I think my birth control hit me about then, and I didn't feel great, so I was a terrible dinner date. The ironic thing is as much as I did not want to do that again, (spend that much money) that night we got a check from a relative who wasn't going to be able to make it to the wedding and it was for the exact amount we had spent.
On Friday, we spent a little more time clearing out the rest of Atlantean and I's rooms, and we pretty much live in prison cells recently. Just a bed and echoey chambers of rooms. We grabbed the last couple of random things that we don't need into November and just packed them into our apartment. Wolfman came and helped us move Atlantean's desk - which was no easy feat, but we officially have all the furniture in except for the IKEA shelf in my room and my two beanbags. Also, Atlantean and I finally went through all of our books that were just on the floor and had to double stack them on three separate shelves to get them all to fit. I think we still have some extra. We then set up the card table and the reading room finally looks great! We have a great set up in there! And all our furniture fit! (it's a miracle!) then we hung out and didn't want to leave, but we had to. Wolfman and my receptionist coworker both tell me it's a silly idea to not pay for the apartment and have one of us live in it, or think about it, or go back to hang out in it, but I persistently feel like Atlantean and I need to keep it special and not just some "hang out joint" that we just return to when we're married. It's either our apartment or no apartment at all. Atlantean didn't even blink when I requested this odd thing of him. I love him.
He has been growing in my respect more and more this week, as he kind of has a new goal of thinking about things in the future rather than just as they come. He has been more comprehensible, capable and all over more on top of things this week than I have ever seen him. It feels like he cares. And he's proving he does.
On top of that, my family is finally starting to really jump on the bandwagon of this reception now. This past few weeks, we've actually had a couple sit down sessions where they grill me on what has already been done, what needs to be done, and what it will take to accomplish it. I not only have a family first and foremost, I have a team of people who are concerned for my wellbeing, and are overall - my friends, and I really appreciate that great great blessing in my life. Centaur (my dad) just told me this morning that he bought the cable that will help us connect phones or speakers to the church speakers. Fairy Queen (my mom) has been going through vast amounts of pictures for the slideshow and also buying frames for tables full of pictures. I showed Mermaid the playlist and she approved, and said she would help with it and Wolfman recently talked to Atlantean about if his crown didn't arrive in time, how they could just make one together. He also had offered to buy some extra tungsten off his teacher so we don't have to spend 50$ on a bulk package when Atlantean only needs about 2 more pieces and has offered to make me 24 easels out of plywood so I don't have to buy or rent them. Everyone is being so helpful and supportive and covering bases that I have been fretting about for months without me even asking them to. I love them, I love them, I love them, I love them SO MUCH.
Friday night was Atlantean's bachelor party and I headed over to Pixie's birthday party to represent for the two of us. It was one of the few times I've been out and about without him. We played a couple fun games such as Cards of Humanity (which I boycotted), Betrayal at the House on the Hill (with a brand new set that Pixie's sister had bought after playing Atlantean's set) and then a fun new one called Codenames (which we kind of played for hours, it was really fun :) ) We got to wear party hats and I saw Dryad's boyfriend whom I haven't seen in a long time. (I introduced them to each other BTW and they are. so. cute.) Pixie's mom is becoming a better friend (and she's going through a divorce right now) and I got to meet another of Pixie's friends and have a good time that night. I also felt like I had taken Atlantean's place a little bit when se played Betrayal at the House on the Hill because I knew the rules so well and I could explain, though Pixie's boyfriend is also no stranger to games and really helped out.
Saturday came and Atlantean and I woke up to hand deliver the last of the invitations to his neighborhood, which we had a nice walk on, except he had eaten so many of my peanut butter fingers at the bachelor party the night before (he confessed to almost a third of the pan) that his tummy wasn't feeling fantastic, but he worked through the pain. We lazed around and then headed up to BYU to go watch a free film festival that I thought was pretty cool. I thought we could maybe stay for the other two, which weren't free, but Atlantean started hitting a depressive episode, so we had bought some food from Walmart (go us!) to eat and then took a picnic blanket where we sat on a school ground and talked through what he was feeling. I've found the best thing is just to continuously ask questions. He eventually was talking and laughing again, and tried to shove two clementines in his mouth and even chew 😂 We unfortunately weren't able to meet up with one of Atlantean's favorite mission companions and headed back home where we tried to watch Steven Universe (our new favorite show) but then ended up spending the entire night hanging out and chatting with my mom and brother. Like I said, my family is my best friends.
Sunday was a day of church, and then later that day, I had told him that we needed to try and persistently practice two things every Sunday - and that was our dance and stick shift on his car. I told him I didn't want to dance, but he persisted, which is actually rather unlike him. So I finally obeyed with a crappy attitude, and then I began to get into it, and by the end of it, because he had seen I was cracking and he started to have fun with me, I just buried my head in his chest and cried, simply amazed by his love for me and patience with me. I swear he never thinks a mean thing about a soul, even when I'm being a selfish brat. Even on the night of IKEA when I told him that I was being selfish and explained how, he said it was fine, that I was forgiven. And I asked in amazement how he could forgive me so easily. He said it was because he had a lot of practice forgiving himself.
I am not marrying a giant.
I am marrying an angel.
That night I took bridals with my sister and my mother, who gussied me up and took me where they wanted to take good shots of me. Many of them were very cool, but I'm a little self conscious about the way I look and didn't think any of them were very good because I was the subject. 😅 But they spent a lot of time editing and going through them and I did feel bad when I just left because I didn't really care. I've come to the conclusion that a wedding is not to make you into something you're not - like beautiful or extra caring or something. It's just to emphasize what you already are. In fact, that's what all things should be like.
Anyway, it is now the morning of October 23rd and Atlantean and I have very much enjoyed our four day weekend and are now 26 days away from November 18th! How the days creep forward and yet speed by! It's unreal! But I'm realizing more and more that you can only live in the now.
Wish me luck!
Nymph
("Briefly" Lol yeah right)
Tuesday was the day Dryad took me lingerie shopping - and let me tell you - Dryad is one of my favorite people to shop with because she has so much patience! She'll wait outside fitting rooms, she'll tell you the truth about what you try on and never try to get you to go faster or moan about how slow you're going. She even offered, if we didn't find anything this time, that we could try again another day. She was actually really thrilled that I let her do this with me, and I felt the same way toward her. It was weird coming out of a dressing room wearing so little, but I did want a nice pair of lingerie, and I was so happy when she wasn't just willing to settle with something "alright" and never judged me for the way my body looked. She even suggested a couple of styles because of my body shape. She said she wants to have me in something that when I wear it, I think, "Dang! I'D do me." I really appreciate her and can't wait to go again!
Wednesday night was the night that Fairy Queen, Atlantean and I went to go pick up my prescribed birth control. We were freaked out when the front counter told us it was going to be 63$ a month for the name brand, and I freaked out because I not only was scared of all the things I had heard birth control does to a woman, and now on top of that - I had to pay a large amount of money that I was pretty sure I didn't have every month. Atlantean took me over to the empty deli at Smiths to rant and cry, and we left Fairy Queen in the pharmacy.
God works in miraculous ways, and this was one of those times. My mom was not only able to acquire free birth control, but also birth control that was totally prescribed and was the name brand. I didn't deserve this kind of treatment since all I had done is whine about it not being the way I had wanted. It's just another testament I suppose that God really desires Atlantean and I to be married and that it should be a wonderful time, not a time of elevated stress. I recently also changed my time of birth control and while I'm nervous about the effects and I do not - nay - I CANNOT get pregnant anytime soon, I'm already failing at remembering about taking it. I need to be better.
Wednesday was also the day that Jinn took me over to her house and helped me make peanut butter fingers for Atlantean's bachelor party. She pretty much just handed me the recipe and supervised me, so I essentially made them all by myself. I also discovered I have an irrational fear of handmixers. They're just too strong! They scare me. I also got a glimpse into Troll and Jinn's life together as Troll came down to read us some of his writing and take care of their baby (whom I think I named Unicorn previously?). Jinn has also had to currently come and use our oven down in our apartment (which technically isn't actually ours, but I still like to consider it ours) because hers upstairs isn't working. I think they recently have actually had a repairman come over and fix it.
Thursday I went and got my hair cut with Pixie, and hated what the woman did. Thankfully they were having a sale at Great Clips and I didn't have to pay too much for it.... She didn't make my bangs straight and she was kind of grumpy the entire time. I know I can work with what she gave me, but I wasn't terribly pleased. I got to look through Pixie's amazing sketchbook afterward and then she willing went with me to Zurchers and Hobby Lobby afterward to pick up crepe paper and silver and blue paper for the leaving of the reception and the flowers of the boutonnieres of the adults. I'm so glad Jinn suggested paper flowers, because now I know how to make them. I also picked up some cute frankenstein socks and some day of the dead candles that contribute to my 30$ fun money (my first thing this month!)
Later that day, Atlantean and I went to his bank to deal with some withdrawal issues and then to IKEA to pick him out some drawers that will fit in my IKEA shelf so that we can have a sort of dresser together, and we had fun fooling around in IKEA again. We also went to Olive Garden just before because he was excited to, and spent a little more than we expected. I felt really bad about it, especially because I think my birth control hit me about then, and I didn't feel great, so I was a terrible dinner date. The ironic thing is as much as I did not want to do that again, (spend that much money) that night we got a check from a relative who wasn't going to be able to make it to the wedding and it was for the exact amount we had spent.
On Friday, we spent a little more time clearing out the rest of Atlantean and I's rooms, and we pretty much live in prison cells recently. Just a bed and echoey chambers of rooms. We grabbed the last couple of random things that we don't need into November and just packed them into our apartment. Wolfman came and helped us move Atlantean's desk - which was no easy feat, but we officially have all the furniture in except for the IKEA shelf in my room and my two beanbags. Also, Atlantean and I finally went through all of our books that were just on the floor and had to double stack them on three separate shelves to get them all to fit. I think we still have some extra. We then set up the card table and the reading room finally looks great! We have a great set up in there! And all our furniture fit! (it's a miracle!) then we hung out and didn't want to leave, but we had to. Wolfman and my receptionist coworker both tell me it's a silly idea to not pay for the apartment and have one of us live in it, or think about it, or go back to hang out in it, but I persistently feel like Atlantean and I need to keep it special and not just some "hang out joint" that we just return to when we're married. It's either our apartment or no apartment at all. Atlantean didn't even blink when I requested this odd thing of him. I love him.
He has been growing in my respect more and more this week, as he kind of has a new goal of thinking about things in the future rather than just as they come. He has been more comprehensible, capable and all over more on top of things this week than I have ever seen him. It feels like he cares. And he's proving he does.
On top of that, my family is finally starting to really jump on the bandwagon of this reception now. This past few weeks, we've actually had a couple sit down sessions where they grill me on what has already been done, what needs to be done, and what it will take to accomplish it. I not only have a family first and foremost, I have a team of people who are concerned for my wellbeing, and are overall - my friends, and I really appreciate that great great blessing in my life. Centaur (my dad) just told me this morning that he bought the cable that will help us connect phones or speakers to the church speakers. Fairy Queen (my mom) has been going through vast amounts of pictures for the slideshow and also buying frames for tables full of pictures. I showed Mermaid the playlist and she approved, and said she would help with it and Wolfman recently talked to Atlantean about if his crown didn't arrive in time, how they could just make one together. He also had offered to buy some extra tungsten off his teacher so we don't have to spend 50$ on a bulk package when Atlantean only needs about 2 more pieces and has offered to make me 24 easels out of plywood so I don't have to buy or rent them. Everyone is being so helpful and supportive and covering bases that I have been fretting about for months without me even asking them to. I love them, I love them, I love them, I love them SO MUCH.
Friday night was Atlantean's bachelor party and I headed over to Pixie's birthday party to represent for the two of us. It was one of the few times I've been out and about without him. We played a couple fun games such as Cards of Humanity (which I boycotted), Betrayal at the House on the Hill (with a brand new set that Pixie's sister had bought after playing Atlantean's set) and then a fun new one called Codenames (which we kind of played for hours, it was really fun :) ) We got to wear party hats and I saw Dryad's boyfriend whom I haven't seen in a long time. (I introduced them to each other BTW and they are. so. cute.) Pixie's mom is becoming a better friend (and she's going through a divorce right now) and I got to meet another of Pixie's friends and have a good time that night. I also felt like I had taken Atlantean's place a little bit when se played Betrayal at the House on the Hill because I knew the rules so well and I could explain, though Pixie's boyfriend is also no stranger to games and really helped out.
Saturday came and Atlantean and I woke up to hand deliver the last of the invitations to his neighborhood, which we had a nice walk on, except he had eaten so many of my peanut butter fingers at the bachelor party the night before (he confessed to almost a third of the pan) that his tummy wasn't feeling fantastic, but he worked through the pain. We lazed around and then headed up to BYU to go watch a free film festival that I thought was pretty cool. I thought we could maybe stay for the other two, which weren't free, but Atlantean started hitting a depressive episode, so we had bought some food from Walmart (go us!) to eat and then took a picnic blanket where we sat on a school ground and talked through what he was feeling. I've found the best thing is just to continuously ask questions. He eventually was talking and laughing again, and tried to shove two clementines in his mouth and even chew 😂 We unfortunately weren't able to meet up with one of Atlantean's favorite mission companions and headed back home where we tried to watch Steven Universe (our new favorite show) but then ended up spending the entire night hanging out and chatting with my mom and brother. Like I said, my family is my best friends.
Sunday was a day of church, and then later that day, I had told him that we needed to try and persistently practice two things every Sunday - and that was our dance and stick shift on his car. I told him I didn't want to dance, but he persisted, which is actually rather unlike him. So I finally obeyed with a crappy attitude, and then I began to get into it, and by the end of it, because he had seen I was cracking and he started to have fun with me, I just buried my head in his chest and cried, simply amazed by his love for me and patience with me. I swear he never thinks a mean thing about a soul, even when I'm being a selfish brat. Even on the night of IKEA when I told him that I was being selfish and explained how, he said it was fine, that I was forgiven. And I asked in amazement how he could forgive me so easily. He said it was because he had a lot of practice forgiving himself.
I am not marrying a giant.
I am marrying an angel.
That night I took bridals with my sister and my mother, who gussied me up and took me where they wanted to take good shots of me. Many of them were very cool, but I'm a little self conscious about the way I look and didn't think any of them were very good because I was the subject. 😅 But they spent a lot of time editing and going through them and I did feel bad when I just left because I didn't really care. I've come to the conclusion that a wedding is not to make you into something you're not - like beautiful or extra caring or something. It's just to emphasize what you already are. In fact, that's what all things should be like.
Anyway, it is now the morning of October 23rd and Atlantean and I have very much enjoyed our four day weekend and are now 26 days away from November 18th! How the days creep forward and yet speed by! It's unreal! But I'm realizing more and more that you can only live in the now.
Wish me luck!
Nymph
Monday, October 16, 2017
October 16th
Atlantean and I can't believe that our one month marker is only two days away!
Well, apparently, we can believe it, because this Saturday, we rounded up Mermaid's boyfriend, Wolfman, Fairy Queen and Gnome and took the van and a truck up to our new apartment and literally got halfway moved in! And we are almost an entire month out! I guess you could say we're either eager, or super super ready and want to be prepared. Or maybe those are the same. I'm not sure.
We've made a rule, he and I, that we're not allowed to "hang out" in the apartment like EVER. Not because we're afraid we'll start slipping into anything naughty. We really wouldn't. Only because I want it to be special. I want it to be real. Not some hangout joint that we just return to once we're married. It's a sacred space, reserved for married Nymph and Atlantean only.
My bachelorette party was interesting! I just hoped everyone had a good time! The only thing that didn't go so well was my attitude, I think. I got too caught up in the details and then got too controlling, but I believe there were many good moments :) Let me go through the experience, if for nothing else, for my own therapeutic re-evaluation.
In the beginning, we played a bunch of games, kind of waiting for the last person to arrive, but also just to break the ice, and it really did work. We had laughter and teasing, and I really felt like my friends had arrived with an attitude of wanting to be there, which I think made all the difference. Siren really had a lot to do, and I really appreciated her efforts. We played the bean game, which is basically "Never Have I Ever" and then we played a couple of paper games, such as a wedding word search and a game called "How Well Do You Know the Bride" which I liked :) and which Imp and Mermaid slaughtered (naturally)
After that we ate. I cooked some beans in a bowl (a chili of sorts) while Siren brought some chicken salad and rolls to make chicken salad sandwiches. Siren also bought a party pack of Bahama Bucks which actually disappeared ;) and then I made Cake Bombs, which would have been called Cake Pops had I not had to make them so enormous. Both deserts were a huge hit :) And we got to eat them on some Day of the Dead plates and cups I had found at Target and was super tickled pink about. Pixie bought Atlantean and I the sugar skull sugar bowl I had wanted from off our registry and I affectionately nicknamed her Dulcinea the next day when I went to take it to our apartment the next day.
Then we went downstairs and watched Atlantean's responses to some questions I had written and then Siren, Imp and Mermaid had all asked and then filmed him answering. Whenever Atlantean got one wrong, Mermaid wrapped me up with toilet paper. I was grateful for her willingness, because I felt it was at this part that we started losing some interest, and I felt kind of awkward just being strapped to a chair when only my sister was participating. I might just be paranoid. In fact, looking back on it, I probably just am. But then Imp came up with the great idea of just asking him what his five favorite things about me are, and then we wrapped me for as long as he spoke. Then Siren sent me the video. I love him.
Then we went upstairs and put on face jewels. It was actually a load of fun. I've learned people can have a lot of fun when they put their mind to it. I really like the face jewels part because it set us apart as a tribe, ya know? So we decided kind of last minute that the "Something Old" in our scavenger hunt would just be a selfie taken at my house, which would soon be my "old house" so it worked out. We then headed to the mall to find "Something Blue" but we realized the mall was closed, so we headed to Savers, which we were then equally shooed away from. So, as our last hope, we headed to Walmart. Everyone picked out something different that was blue and we had me hold them to take a picture with me. That one was kind of awkward and strange and impromptu, but then everyone found a bin full of large animal head masks that we all tried on and took pictures with as well, so I figured we were having a good time. Everyone in Walmart was looking at us weird when they saw our face jewels though lol. Then Imp started her period and the machine in the bathroom wasn't working, so Brownie and I went hunting for pads. She is honestly one of my favorite people to be around, so even that part was kind of fun :) Brownie bought Imp some pads and we headed out.
By now I was getting kind of tuckered out socially, but I was keeping it up because you only get one bachelorette party. So we headed to the graveyard for the "Something Borrowed" (because life is borrowed lol). Siren and I had looked up scary stories, trying to focus on scary bridal stories and I read them outloud in the car while the girls squealed. Dryad would say things like, "It is Friday the Thirteenth and we are in a graveyard. If we see a clown, GAS IT" and that would put the other girls on edge. Then Mermaid was really terrible and would say things like, "Guys, do you see that thing moving over there?" I read scary stories about brides being buried alive or haunting their dresses. My one I contributed was one called "La Pascualita" which I thought added to the whole Spanish Day of the Dead theme. It was all about a mannequin in Chihauhau Mexico that people believed to not actually be a mannequin, but the preserved corpse of the shopkeepers daughter that had died the night before her wedding. It was creepy. Everyone got so jumpy that when we finally got back to a stoplight, a pedestrian that Dryad pointed out at the last moment scared the entire car, and Mermaid, at one point, thought a statue of Jesus was a woman in white wandering the graveyard.
Then we headed up to the last one, "Something New" (Yes, we know they are out of order, but we worked with what we had okay?) which was the Draper Temple to symbolize that we'll be sealed in the temple. This would've been very nice moment if I had not had the misfortune of really needing to pee. So we drove back down the mountain to my house where we chilled for a little bit. Siren and I had had the plan of watching Corpse Bride (because I really do like that show) at the end, but we got back so late and everyone was so comfortable and chatty that we just kind of didn't. We offered, but Dryad and Pixie said they needed to get to bed. But then I hinted that I could show off my dress. I had never tried on all the pieces I had simultaneously yet. Brownie had asked me previously if she could get a private viewing after the bachelorette party, but I saw no harm in all of them seeing it. So Mermaid helped me put it on and we showed it off.
Guys.... I look really pretty.... 😙😊
After that, most everyone was ready to head out, but I realized (after Mermaid reminded me) that I hadn't given Brownie her birthday gift, even though it was in November. (I just figured since it was close to our wedding, I wouldn't have the thought, so I bought it early) I bought her off of Wish some long socks that make her legs look like little thin chicken legs.
Guys ... she LOVED it.
She wanted to put them on immediately. She was strutting around and laughing so hard and I was so glad she enjoyed them so much! It was definitely not a wasted gift! She went home very cheerful and offered to help us move tomorrow (though she slept through her alarm, poor girl. I don't blame her lol)
Imp also stayed for a little longer and we caught up with her a little bit. Imp is like Mermaid and I's sister, and we love her very much and miss seeing her, but life changes and she says that when I get married "our childhood is officially over."
After the party, I missed Atlantean, and my sister offered to drive me over to his house. He and I wanted to do some kind of midnight Denny's run, but when we got to it, we were kinda tired, though happy to see each other, so we just decided to go and do McDonald's instead. We hung out and then I let him go because we had an early morning today with moving in. I told him and Mermaid's boyfriend and Brownie that we'd be up at eight.
The next day, I was up at eight, but when I woke Fairy Queen up, she kind of begged me to tell everyone to come at nine. I knew that wouldn't be possible, so I just started loading stuff up out of my room onto the couch upstairs. When people finally did show up, we got a lot done :) We got our mattress, our coffee table, all of our kitchen stuff, and even our couch in the apartment! Atlantean and I really are living in very empty rooms at the moment, but it was super fun to move everything around and organize it. Atlantean and I also laid on our bed together for the first time, and I might be weird, but it felt kind of scandalous. I could tell when we did and everyone was in the room what they were thinking... 😅 So when unpacking, I made sure to put all the pictures with glass and posters and wall things on the bed so we wouldn't be tempted to lay down on it.
Other than that, this Sunday was super productive as well! We went to church where I taught a lesson on The Creation and Atlantean taught a little more difficult of a lesson with 12 year old unfocused boys, but after church, I made sure we had time to go grab some side tables a ward member had offered us and I drove there on stick shift! Atlantean says I need to think a little more gently, because my transitions are still way too rough. I'll try to work on that with practice. Then I went over with Gnome to learn how to take care of a ward member's dog, whom is equally as red and as nervous as her owner (I think it's kind of funny). Then we practiced dancing, then we went over to the church where we're having our reception to look around, and then we went to our new apartment to drop off and pick off some stuff, came back to Atlantean's house to have dinner with his family and his brother and sister with three children were there! (they usually aren't) And his sister-in-law had brought me a gift basket because she had missed my shower! It was full of all sorts of really fun stuff! And I was really excited and grateful to her! That night we also went to Pixie's house to play a game of Betrayal at the House on the Hill, not one of Atlantean's favorite game, but I and the girls were feeling it that night. While there, we picked up an armchair a knife block that they had offered us. We ACTUALLY have the dilemma of having too MUCH furniture and no where to put things. I also think I might want Atlantean's desk but have no IDEA where to put it. So all in all it was a productive night. Also, I proved to myself that attitude is an important thing in life. A different night when I went over, everything that Pixie's sister did really irked me, but this night, I was laughing and cavorting with her. It really just goes to show that it's how you perceive things.
And that's it for my exciting weekend! This morning I got up and was way better about exercise and food. Then I walked around the graveyard when my brother dropped me off so I got an entire hour of walking in. Lately I've been liking the song "All That Matters" from Neverland, I really think it applies to my life now.
Also! I gave Imp's brother the entire script of Red with a Riding Hood (my musical). So not only did I TOTALLY forget that his mom asked me to keep it low-key with him on music during midterms but I handed him the ENTIRE SCRIPT.
Failing.
(Also did you know Nymph derives from the Greek word numphe which means "Bride" and the Latin word nubere which means "to be the wife of"? How perfect is that??)
Excited for what's to come,
Nymph
Friday, October 13, 2017
October 13th
Tonight is my bachelorette party which Siren is throwing for me! Pixie, Sprite, Dryad, Imp and Mermaid are gonna be there! So a small party - but I am still very excited (and kind of in denial it's happening 😅) Siren is working so hard and is so good with details and has done such a fun job from what I've seen so far! Pixie wants to buy us a gift and Dryad is offering to go lingerie shopping with me later ;) Not to mention Imp and Sprite came down from their colleges specifically to come to this tonight! I am super stoked and honored to be the object of their affections tonight! Though I will miss Atlantean.
Speaking of Atlantean, I called him this morning and he's really in the dumps. He's reached the end of his week and he feels like he didn't accomplish enough in school or work hard enough at work. I told him it's been a long week, and I feel bad that there's not anything else I can do for him. He was crying on the phone. I don't like to see him in so much pain, and I don't want him to feel guilty. 😰 I want him to be happy, but I guess even those you love have to go through highs and lows and you have to learn to accept that, and let them go through them too.
This week has also been fun - with Imp's brother very excited to begin writing a musical with me. His mother kind of warned me to keep it on the down-low though, because midterms is soon for him, and I don't want to ruin his semester... but he's so excited to write the songs in my musical! And I'm excited that he's excited to work with me! The only issue is that he is now currently a little obsessed with his musical ability and wants to major in music which is making his parents uneasy...
Sorry to Imp's parents if I started that ball rolling...
Jinn and Troll have also begun allowing us to move in! So Atlantean and I have made two trips so far and it's so fun to see our apartment begin to fill up ;) Fairy Queen (my mom) is going to help us move in tomorrow morning and says we really might get a lot of it done and packed in! I'm super excited to start finally adding our personal touch to the place. I know it's a big transition, and there's a lot of scary money aspects, but I am ready!
Also I'm finally getting paid this coming week! (I believe!) It's been a long time. I've worked here for about 4 weeks plus a little more, and I currently have only been paid for four days... But that's just kind of how it goes with their payroll system, which means this next paycheck should be a considerable cash cow, and I would be lying if I said I was not looking forward to it.
Did I mention I wrote a musical? It's always been a goal of mine, and while it's nowhere near finished, I pushed through and got a really crappy and rough draft. It's hard for me to go back and edit things like this, not only because I have a partial and biased eye to the things I put in there, but also sometimes I get discouraged because I'll reread back through and it just seems full of plot holes and unfixable problems, and it suddenly looks like a behemoth of a project that I'm not sure how willing I am to sit through. But thems the wraps. I want to write a musical! (And heaven knows I have the time at work) So I'm gonna try my best!
Also - one of my favorite pieces of advice my mom has recently given me while walking together was "Motivating your husband, your children and yourself will be the hardest thing you do in this life. But let me give you a little tip - do what you love and do it with a passion, and they will see that." I have sometimes been so rotten to my mother, but somehow she is always there with a loving adorable word and a cup of hot cocoa and she means the world to me.
Enjoying walking to work in slacks,
Nymph
Speaking of Atlantean, I called him this morning and he's really in the dumps. He's reached the end of his week and he feels like he didn't accomplish enough in school or work hard enough at work. I told him it's been a long week, and I feel bad that there's not anything else I can do for him. He was crying on the phone. I don't like to see him in so much pain, and I don't want him to feel guilty. 😰 I want him to be happy, but I guess even those you love have to go through highs and lows and you have to learn to accept that, and let them go through them too.
This week has also been fun - with Imp's brother very excited to begin writing a musical with me. His mother kind of warned me to keep it on the down-low though, because midterms is soon for him, and I don't want to ruin his semester... but he's so excited to write the songs in my musical! And I'm excited that he's excited to work with me! The only issue is that he is now currently a little obsessed with his musical ability and wants to major in music which is making his parents uneasy...
Sorry to Imp's parents if I started that ball rolling...
Jinn and Troll have also begun allowing us to move in! So Atlantean and I have made two trips so far and it's so fun to see our apartment begin to fill up ;) Fairy Queen (my mom) is going to help us move in tomorrow morning and says we really might get a lot of it done and packed in! I'm super excited to start finally adding our personal touch to the place. I know it's a big transition, and there's a lot of scary money aspects, but I am ready!
Also I'm finally getting paid this coming week! (I believe!) It's been a long time. I've worked here for about 4 weeks plus a little more, and I currently have only been paid for four days... But that's just kind of how it goes with their payroll system, which means this next paycheck should be a considerable cash cow, and I would be lying if I said I was not looking forward to it.
Did I mention I wrote a musical? It's always been a goal of mine, and while it's nowhere near finished, I pushed through and got a really crappy and rough draft. It's hard for me to go back and edit things like this, not only because I have a partial and biased eye to the things I put in there, but also sometimes I get discouraged because I'll reread back through and it just seems full of plot holes and unfixable problems, and it suddenly looks like a behemoth of a project that I'm not sure how willing I am to sit through. But thems the wraps. I want to write a musical! (And heaven knows I have the time at work) So I'm gonna try my best!
Also - one of my favorite pieces of advice my mom has recently given me while walking together was "Motivating your husband, your children and yourself will be the hardest thing you do in this life. But let me give you a little tip - do what you love and do it with a passion, and they will see that." I have sometimes been so rotten to my mother, but somehow she is always there with a loving adorable word and a cup of hot cocoa and she means the world to me.
Enjoying walking to work in slacks,
Nymph
Monday, October 9, 2017
October 9th
So this weekend was quite eventful! :#3
I have some great news on many major fronts! My favorite is that Jinn and Troll are going to let us move in early and not make us pay rent!
This great news came last night at Sunday dinner at their house when Jinn told us that her and Troll had been talking and they were okay with us starting to move our stuff in and still not have to pay rent until November, which I have to confess was becoming a stressful thought for me because I was pretty sure we were going to have our hands pretty full with the wedding. They told us they know what it's like being newly married and wanted to help us out as soon as they find the key. I'm so excited to start moving in all of our furniture and have it all in one safe place so I don't have to mentally keep track of it anymore! We can start building our future home - early! And I'm super stoked! My mom (Fairy Queen) says that we can start taking trips to their house in the morning to slowly start taking all of it over and I'm so relieved. (I just hope they find the key!!)
Other than that fantastic news - I have more! Not only did we order and receive the bridesmaids headbands (I might've mentioned that before) but now the groomsmen ties are here! :D It's all coming together and it's such a nice feeling! I have finally solidified in my head a lot of where and what I want from the Abandoned City furniture, and all I have now is to ask and solidify requests for them from the kind women who are lending them. I'm actually starting to feel purposeless again since I'm running out of things to do regarding the wedding. (I know, I'm pathetic lol)
On Saturday - I had my first bridal shower! And it was way fun! My aunts came up with cute games - one was matching iconic movie couples to quotes from the movies (which I was terrible at) but the other one was adorable! It was a giant game of memory where half of them had candy bars and the other half had things that were supposed to match the candy bars. Like "Father of the Bride" was "Sugar Daddy" and "The Wedding Ring" was a Ring Pop and "The First Wedding Dance" was a Symphony. If anyone got one right, they got to keep the candy bar. It was super cute and super fun. Then we opened gifts. Many cool baking things, a couple practical things like sheets and space heaters. But one of the coolest gifts I got was from Atlantean's mom and sister, which was a big basket for our first Christmas together. It had Hot Cocoa and cinnamon candles, stockings, mugs, ornaments, tree skirts and was absolutely adorable. Then they asked me to tell them the complete story of how we met up until he proposed, and I cried and felt loved. Also, my aunt dropped off all of the foliage that she's letting us use for the Abandoned City decor, so that's another thing I have my thumb on top of.
In love with being in love,
Nymph
I have some great news on many major fronts! My favorite is that Jinn and Troll are going to let us move in early and not make us pay rent!
This great news came last night at Sunday dinner at their house when Jinn told us that her and Troll had been talking and they were okay with us starting to move our stuff in and still not have to pay rent until November, which I have to confess was becoming a stressful thought for me because I was pretty sure we were going to have our hands pretty full with the wedding. They told us they know what it's like being newly married and wanted to help us out as soon as they find the key. I'm so excited to start moving in all of our furniture and have it all in one safe place so I don't have to mentally keep track of it anymore! We can start building our future home - early! And I'm super stoked! My mom (Fairy Queen) says that we can start taking trips to their house in the morning to slowly start taking all of it over and I'm so relieved. (I just hope they find the key!!)
Other than that fantastic news - I have more! Not only did we order and receive the bridesmaids headbands (I might've mentioned that before) but now the groomsmen ties are here! :D It's all coming together and it's such a nice feeling! I have finally solidified in my head a lot of where and what I want from the Abandoned City furniture, and all I have now is to ask and solidify requests for them from the kind women who are lending them. I'm actually starting to feel purposeless again since I'm running out of things to do regarding the wedding. (I know, I'm pathetic lol)
On Saturday - I had my first bridal shower! And it was way fun! My aunts came up with cute games - one was matching iconic movie couples to quotes from the movies (which I was terrible at) but the other one was adorable! It was a giant game of memory where half of them had candy bars and the other half had things that were supposed to match the candy bars. Like "Father of the Bride" was "Sugar Daddy" and "The Wedding Ring" was a Ring Pop and "The First Wedding Dance" was a Symphony. If anyone got one right, they got to keep the candy bar. It was super cute and super fun. Then we opened gifts. Many cool baking things, a couple practical things like sheets and space heaters. But one of the coolest gifts I got was from Atlantean's mom and sister, which was a big basket for our first Christmas together. It had Hot Cocoa and cinnamon candles, stockings, mugs, ornaments, tree skirts and was absolutely adorable. Then they asked me to tell them the complete story of how we met up until he proposed, and I cried and felt loved. Also, my aunt dropped off all of the foliage that she's letting us use for the Abandoned City decor, so that's another thing I have my thumb on top of.
In love with being in love,
Nymph
Friday, October 6, 2017
October 6th
So today was the first day I walked to work! Kind of.
I've been kind of freaking out currently about car situation seeing as how Wolfman recently wrecked one of our cars and we were already cutting it close with our driving situation. So now I was the one who had to figure my own situation out, even though I had no clue what to do since Atlantean needs his car to drive to his school down in Taylorsville and then his work down in Salt Lake City. Plus it's stick shift, and it takes me two months in between panic attacks for him to teach me, so suffice to say, progress in that area isn't going well...
So for a few days, I felt very much the victim, like I was hung out to dry and no one cared. Like the high school students were more important than the nearly-wed who needed to get to her consistent job, which, honestly, was asked for a consistent schedule to help her family out, and then it didn't seem to help at all.
So for a couple of days it felt like fighting, and begging my mom to take me, and having to last minutely find a way and then we talked about walking an hour down to TRAX, and I just didn't know what the plan was, and my family, probably intentionally, left me to figure out things for myself, because that's the way of the world.
So today, finally, I figured out if I caught a ride with my brother to CTEC whenever he went back for his 11:30 class, his school is eerily close to my work, so I just walk. I seriously don't know why we didn't come up with this a lot sooner. I get to walk, hence I don't have to jump on the treadmill every morning. I get to be outside - which, hello, my name is Nymph (I love being outside). And I get to see my brother, who is kind of my favorite sibling. I think it's a win win. PLUS Atlantean commonly has a break from welding between 11:00 - 12:00, so he called me today and we agreed it'd be fine if he had a break to call me every morning, and he said that'd be awesome. It's so funny how panicked I was this last week and then found a solution. I really should have just had more faith that things would work out and that God would help me figure it out, but I secretly think he obscured such an obvious answer from me so that I would have to freak out and realize how to accept disappointment better. Also, Atlantean thinks it's amazing that we've been together 6 or 7 months and we still have many interesting things to talk about. I appreciate that too. :)
Other than that, last night I cuddled with Atlantean, even though I know I really shouldn't since he's sick. I think I am getting a little bit of a postnasal drip cold, but I'm hoping it's nothing worse than that since I have a couple bridal showers this week and I don't wanna get any worse...
Siren and Atlantean's mom are both already getting navy blue dresses for the wedding and I was so happy last night when Atlantean's mom told me she had bought a silver scarf for one of her silver accents. I think that is a fantastic idea and will look so cute on her! Also - Atlantean's brother, whom I adore and I will have to come up with a better name for, made himself a dark blue vest. MADE himself one! For OUR wedding! It is crazy what people will do when you have a big day! It's insane the outpouring of love. Siren sent me pictures and went and tried things on and bought a brand new blue dress. It's crazy how one moment I'm just theorizing, "what if we did this-" such as "what if we did navy blue with silver" and then people just to honor you and the occasion, totally go out of their way to make your special day awesome by buying and thinking about the look of it all. It's really inspiring :) Also - Atlantean's sister (I really need better names) is taking little piece off of work tomorrow to attend my bridal shower! I mean, how nice can you get! It's all so kind what they're doing! Though I am a little nervous about the color matching, since I've told some peoplle that royal blue would be okay, mainly Sprite. I'm also worried she won't accept the invitation to be my bridesmaid, which I sent a while back, but she still hasn't mentioned.
Let's see... the books I'm reading today at work are "Writer's Market 2018" and "Bicycle Repair."
I have my first lesson as a Gospel Principles Teacher in a while this Sunday.
I also just learned that apparently the girl I replaced up here at the receptionist desk actually wasn't that liked of a girl. Not that I like hearing that, but it does give me hope that I have less big shoes to fill and the people don't think too badly of me and my business-like ways.
Reading "250 Best Paying Jobs" kind of gave me hope yesterday - that my life is not ending when I get married, that there are still so many things to go do and be.
I think I'll be okay,
Nymph
I've been kind of freaking out currently about car situation seeing as how Wolfman recently wrecked one of our cars and we were already cutting it close with our driving situation. So now I was the one who had to figure my own situation out, even though I had no clue what to do since Atlantean needs his car to drive to his school down in Taylorsville and then his work down in Salt Lake City. Plus it's stick shift, and it takes me two months in between panic attacks for him to teach me, so suffice to say, progress in that area isn't going well...
So for a few days, I felt very much the victim, like I was hung out to dry and no one cared. Like the high school students were more important than the nearly-wed who needed to get to her consistent job, which, honestly, was asked for a consistent schedule to help her family out, and then it didn't seem to help at all.
So for a couple of days it felt like fighting, and begging my mom to take me, and having to last minutely find a way and then we talked about walking an hour down to TRAX, and I just didn't know what the plan was, and my family, probably intentionally, left me to figure out things for myself, because that's the way of the world.
So today, finally, I figured out if I caught a ride with my brother to CTEC whenever he went back for his 11:30 class, his school is eerily close to my work, so I just walk. I seriously don't know why we didn't come up with this a lot sooner. I get to walk, hence I don't have to jump on the treadmill every morning. I get to be outside - which, hello, my name is Nymph (I love being outside). And I get to see my brother, who is kind of my favorite sibling. I think it's a win win. PLUS Atlantean commonly has a break from welding between 11:00 - 12:00, so he called me today and we agreed it'd be fine if he had a break to call me every morning, and he said that'd be awesome. It's so funny how panicked I was this last week and then found a solution. I really should have just had more faith that things would work out and that God would help me figure it out, but I secretly think he obscured such an obvious answer from me so that I would have to freak out and realize how to accept disappointment better. Also, Atlantean thinks it's amazing that we've been together 6 or 7 months and we still have many interesting things to talk about. I appreciate that too. :)
Other than that, last night I cuddled with Atlantean, even though I know I really shouldn't since he's sick. I think I am getting a little bit of a postnasal drip cold, but I'm hoping it's nothing worse than that since I have a couple bridal showers this week and I don't wanna get any worse...
Siren and Atlantean's mom are both already getting navy blue dresses for the wedding and I was so happy last night when Atlantean's mom told me she had bought a silver scarf for one of her silver accents. I think that is a fantastic idea and will look so cute on her! Also - Atlantean's brother, whom I adore and I will have to come up with a better name for, made himself a dark blue vest. MADE himself one! For OUR wedding! It is crazy what people will do when you have a big day! It's insane the outpouring of love. Siren sent me pictures and went and tried things on and bought a brand new blue dress. It's crazy how one moment I'm just theorizing, "what if we did this-" such as "what if we did navy blue with silver" and then people just to honor you and the occasion, totally go out of their way to make your special day awesome by buying and thinking about the look of it all. It's really inspiring :) Also - Atlantean's sister (I really need better names) is taking little piece off of work tomorrow to attend my bridal shower! I mean, how nice can you get! It's all so kind what they're doing! Though I am a little nervous about the color matching, since I've told some peoplle that royal blue would be okay, mainly Sprite. I'm also worried she won't accept the invitation to be my bridesmaid, which I sent a while back, but she still hasn't mentioned.
Let's see... the books I'm reading today at work are "Writer's Market 2018" and "Bicycle Repair."
I have my first lesson as a Gospel Principles Teacher in a while this Sunday.
I also just learned that apparently the girl I replaced up here at the receptionist desk actually wasn't that liked of a girl. Not that I like hearing that, but it does give me hope that I have less big shoes to fill and the people don't think too badly of me and my business-like ways.
Reading "250 Best Paying Jobs" kind of gave me hope yesterday - that my life is not ending when I get married, that there are still so many things to go do and be.
I think I'll be okay,
Nymph
Thursday, October 5, 2017
October 5th
What is there not to say? I'm going to be a bride in almost 43 days, and the time seems to fly!
I recently got a new job at the Canyons School District - I'm a receptionist. And let me tell you, I didn't know what I had until it was gone. When I was working at BuyBuyBaby, I really had a good time, working hard. I had lots to do and plenty of people and purpose to interact with. Now I got hired here. And while I know it is a godsend and it pays better and is walkable from my new home when I move in with Atlantean - it is REALLY lacking in things to do. I essentially sit at a desk for hours on end, guarding the front door and making sure people know where they're going and transferring phone calls.
Now, I don't want to complain, because I know, in many ways, this job is a godsend, and I'm glad for it when we start our new life. But I'm really wondering why God put me here and what I'm supposed to learn. So I've been recently not trying to play the victim, which I personally think I'm good at, and I went and checked out loads of informational books at the library, and those are what I use to get me through the day. Books like, "GPS for Everyone" and "The Everything Alzheimers Book" and "Cats: 500 Questions Answered." I'm just trying to keep up on my education, trying to continue to learn and grow and now be stinted by the fact that I am trapped behind this desk. I'm also trying to plan for my future - what I want to do - and what I can do now to make that happen. I'm ambitious and I know it, and I want to become better - so I will try to make the best of this situation.
I have also been working on writing, which I though God was not giving me time for for a reason, but turns out it's been an excellent way to pass the time, because I really do enjoy writing. So I wrote the entire second installment to a 76 page script I wrote my first few weeks up at USU which I read out loud with my friends. I've figured I write scripts when I'm trying to cope with things - and this definitely was one of those times. This one turned out to be about 59 pages, and I'm still editing it, but I'm proud of it and always shocked about where they come from when I write them....
I will mention I went bridal dress shopping with Dryad and Pixie a couple months ago, and it was so fun and the pictures were so cute, I thought it was worth writing about. We went to NPS (of all places!) to go look at some wedding dresses. Dryad and Pixie both fell in love with a lacy one on me that made me look (I thought) like a rich man's wife in a nightgown coming out on her balcony in the middle of the night. No doubt it was pretty and I was appreciative of their support and their fun loving sides that came out in this endeavor, and their passion for a certain dress type and wanting to see me in it, but I went with an earlier discovery in a small dress shop in the basement of a woman's cabin. It is a lovely dress that we decided to pair with a fur shawl (which I'm SUPER excited about) and gold accents and which Atlantean is NOT allowed to see until the wedding. What can we say? We like our gender roles. But I can say this much - as far as I'm concerned, I look like Queen Audrey Hepburn, and I am okay with it. (I also convinced Atlantean to buy us crowns from off Wish.com, which are still shipping. Hey. You only get to be a new king and queen once. I wanted to honor that)
Anyway, I am still madly in love with my Atlantean, whom makes my days bright and makes my nights worthwhile. He recently really pulled me out of a stupor that I was starting to fall into, and took me out to get lots of things done and make me feel good again. :) Last night, we cuddled, even though we're probably not supposed to, considering he is sick and I have a total of three bridal showers to attend and have fun at this month (things are actually happening! Aaaaah!) I think, so far I've gotten lucky and haven't gotten sick yet, but I don't think we want to continue taking our chances.
Speaking of three bridal showers - I have my first one coming up this Saturday, which is one thrown by my aunts and a family only bridal shower, which I am super excited about. I'm pretty sure once it happens - it's official, ya know? Like I am REALLY getting married, once I have the traditional family bridal shower. And I'm super excited to start taking these next few steps forward since life is not meant to be lived in limbo (even if there are valuable lessons you can learn while there.)
Then after that, my friend has agreed (Thank you Siren!!) to throw me a bachelorette party! Day of the Dead themed and everything! I am really excited to maybe attempt to make some Day of the Dead cake pops and some traditional Dia De Los Muertos foods with my mom, sparkle up each others faces with some sticky jewels, and plays some games! I'm particularly excited about a game where they filmed Steven's answers to questions about me - and then we get to watch it. I'm excited about that :#3. And THEN on the 24th of October, we're having a WARD Bridal shower - thrown by this wonderful lady who just wants to show me how much she adores me, and I have no clue why! But she is the nicest woman, and I'm really excited to just sit back and just show up to do nothing and get presents. I actually asked that it be a non-perishable food shower so that I could get some good food storage started right away and maybe not have to make that dreaded first grocery trip any more painful than it's already going to be.
I've also been recently wandering around the neighborhood and getting an antique showcase as I ask for volunteer furniture for the theme of our wedding, which I'm not sure if I've already mentioned, but is "Abandoned City." It sounds crazy - but I think I can make it work. It's been really interesting setting up the appointments and talking to the women who are offering some very fun pieces of furniture. I feel like I'm getting to know my ward a lot better right before I'm expected to leave them and it does break my heart a little, but I've loved this experience and I'm hoping the women who have been helping me will not only be blessed, but will like what they see at the reception. I kind of want to make them proud :)
Aaaaaand then there is the news that I might be short one truck...
My sister, with her long time boyfriend (of atleast 6 months, maybe not forever, but a significant amount) recently felt like she needed a break, and told him so. It wasn't easy on either of them, but I admire my sister for her courage and intuition. I know I couldn't have done that, I'm too stupidly loyal and will endure to the end suffering rather than hurt someone like that. Which I think is why God gave me the easy way out, with a spouse I knew would be my husband within a matter of days. But Mermaid has a longer bumpier road ahead of her that will lead to her own happiness someday, and we're glad of that for her :) (But her boyfriend had a truck, and he offered it, but now we might be SOL for a little while...)
My recent endeavor with my life is to learn how to take disappointment better. Sometimes I break down instantly when things don't go as well, and I don't want to be like that anymore. I want to be strong, and I want to realize things will not always go my way. That I need to trust in God, but also work harder to come up with a Plan B, and not panic when that falls through as well.
Feeling drained but not doing anything,
Nymph
I recently got a new job at the Canyons School District - I'm a receptionist. And let me tell you, I didn't know what I had until it was gone. When I was working at BuyBuyBaby, I really had a good time, working hard. I had lots to do and plenty of people and purpose to interact with. Now I got hired here. And while I know it is a godsend and it pays better and is walkable from my new home when I move in with Atlantean - it is REALLY lacking in things to do. I essentially sit at a desk for hours on end, guarding the front door and making sure people know where they're going and transferring phone calls.
Now, I don't want to complain, because I know, in many ways, this job is a godsend, and I'm glad for it when we start our new life. But I'm really wondering why God put me here and what I'm supposed to learn. So I've been recently not trying to play the victim, which I personally think I'm good at, and I went and checked out loads of informational books at the library, and those are what I use to get me through the day. Books like, "GPS for Everyone" and "The Everything Alzheimers Book" and "Cats: 500 Questions Answered." I'm just trying to keep up on my education, trying to continue to learn and grow and now be stinted by the fact that I am trapped behind this desk. I'm also trying to plan for my future - what I want to do - and what I can do now to make that happen. I'm ambitious and I know it, and I want to become better - so I will try to make the best of this situation.
I have also been working on writing, which I though God was not giving me time for for a reason, but turns out it's been an excellent way to pass the time, because I really do enjoy writing. So I wrote the entire second installment to a 76 page script I wrote my first few weeks up at USU which I read out loud with my friends. I've figured I write scripts when I'm trying to cope with things - and this definitely was one of those times. This one turned out to be about 59 pages, and I'm still editing it, but I'm proud of it and always shocked about where they come from when I write them....
Anyway, I am still madly in love with my Atlantean, whom makes my days bright and makes my nights worthwhile. He recently really pulled me out of a stupor that I was starting to fall into, and took me out to get lots of things done and make me feel good again. :) Last night, we cuddled, even though we're probably not supposed to, considering he is sick and I have a total of three bridal showers to attend and have fun at this month (things are actually happening! Aaaaah!) I think, so far I've gotten lucky and haven't gotten sick yet, but I don't think we want to continue taking our chances.
Speaking of three bridal showers - I have my first one coming up this Saturday, which is one thrown by my aunts and a family only bridal shower, which I am super excited about. I'm pretty sure once it happens - it's official, ya know? Like I am REALLY getting married, once I have the traditional family bridal shower. And I'm super excited to start taking these next few steps forward since life is not meant to be lived in limbo (even if there are valuable lessons you can learn while there.)
Then after that, my friend has agreed (Thank you Siren!!) to throw me a bachelorette party! Day of the Dead themed and everything! I am really excited to maybe attempt to make some Day of the Dead cake pops and some traditional Dia De Los Muertos foods with my mom, sparkle up each others faces with some sticky jewels, and plays some games! I'm particularly excited about a game where they filmed Steven's answers to questions about me - and then we get to watch it. I'm excited about that :#3. And THEN on the 24th of October, we're having a WARD Bridal shower - thrown by this wonderful lady who just wants to show me how much she adores me, and I have no clue why! But she is the nicest woman, and I'm really excited to just sit back and just show up to do nothing and get presents. I actually asked that it be a non-perishable food shower so that I could get some good food storage started right away and maybe not have to make that dreaded first grocery trip any more painful than it's already going to be.
I've also been recently wandering around the neighborhood and getting an antique showcase as I ask for volunteer furniture for the theme of our wedding, which I'm not sure if I've already mentioned, but is "Abandoned City." It sounds crazy - but I think I can make it work. It's been really interesting setting up the appointments and talking to the women who are offering some very fun pieces of furniture. I feel like I'm getting to know my ward a lot better right before I'm expected to leave them and it does break my heart a little, but I've loved this experience and I'm hoping the women who have been helping me will not only be blessed, but will like what they see at the reception. I kind of want to make them proud :)
Aaaaaand then there is the news that I might be short one truck...
My sister, with her long time boyfriend (of atleast 6 months, maybe not forever, but a significant amount) recently felt like she needed a break, and told him so. It wasn't easy on either of them, but I admire my sister for her courage and intuition. I know I couldn't have done that, I'm too stupidly loyal and will endure to the end suffering rather than hurt someone like that. Which I think is why God gave me the easy way out, with a spouse I knew would be my husband within a matter of days. But Mermaid has a longer bumpier road ahead of her that will lead to her own happiness someday, and we're glad of that for her :) (But her boyfriend had a truck, and he offered it, but now we might be SOL for a little while...)
My recent endeavor with my life is to learn how to take disappointment better. Sometimes I break down instantly when things don't go as well, and I don't want to be like that anymore. I want to be strong, and I want to realize things will not always go my way. That I need to trust in God, but also work harder to come up with a Plan B, and not panic when that falls through as well.
Feeling drained but not doing anything,
Nymph
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